A Hard Celebration

We went to Sizzler tonight. 
Kinda like a...celebratory thing? 
Ish?
I mean...it was my parents anniversary on Wednesday. 

So it would make sense that Daddoo would want to do something kinda...to like...idk...celebrate is the wrong word. But mark the occasion? 
Which mark the occasion he did by telling us a couple good news things that has helped to relieve some of the uncontrollable stresses in my life. So yay!

But it was....hard.
Hard being at Sizzler.

Because we went there as a family you know? 
Like the last time we ate there had been with Mom.

And it didn't help at all that the waitress sat us in the exact same location that we'd sat in the last time she'd been with us for dinner there.

The empty sixth chair was felt all too strongly as we tried to keep the spirit up and talk and laugh and such.

But still.
It's hard.
Hard to go places that we'd go to all together. 

It will probably get easier in time.

But all the firsts....will be hard.

Like tonight was.
Eating here for the first time since she passed. 

I miss her.

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi