195th Semiannual General Conference Highlights - Sunday Sessions

 Sunday Morning 

Jeffrey R. Holland

• God can bless us by whatever method he chooses from the most unlikely of sources, things, and places. 
• How easy it is for us to dismiss the source of our redemption because of the ingredients or the instruments seem embarrassing or plain. 
• Are we willing to persevere no matter how much 'spit and clay' it takes?
• Is the Book of Mormon a rod of safety for your soul? 

James E. Evanson

• Service continues to lead others to the Gospel. 
• God needs people to love and serve others. 
• You don't need an assignment to do good. God loves every act of service done for good unto others. 
• If Teaching missionaries are the Lord's mouth, then Service missionaries are the Lord's hands. Service missionaries are NOT second class missionaries. They are just as important. 
• Service is the lifeblood of the Gospel of Christ. 
• Through service we change hearts and the world. 

Ulisses Soares

• Temperance harmonizes and strengthens other Christlike attributes. 
• We can be firmly anchored to the rock of His grace. 
• True spiritual strength is not expressed in haughty words but in temperance.
• The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort but in moments of controversy. 
• Don't let your afflictions become gaps in your faith. 

Peter M. Johnson

• Ministering in the Savior's way involves love without judgement. 
• Jesus is the Christ and I am HIS disciple. 
• The Savior's job is to heal and make us whole. Our job is to minister in such a way as to bring others unto Christ and bring us together. 

D. Todd Christofferson

• Turn to the Lord. Ask him to comfort your heart and soothe the pain you feel. 
• Don't look away from Him, but Look to Him. 
• Christ is with us and loves us even when our hearts hurt. 
• Looking to God is to keep his commandments, look unto him continually for his support. 
• Immorality is one of the quickest ways to lose your testimony. 
• Public opinion is not the arbiter of truth.
• Our faith can continue to grow even in times of doubt and challenges. 

Andrea Munoz Spannaus

• We can receive a personal testimony of God's prophets today and can open our hearts, our minds, and our hearts to the messages that the Lord has for us today. 
• Raise your children in light and truth. 

Henry B. Eyring 

• God is proving you, but He is also with you. 
• Your struggle with something may also be a gift from the Lord. He may be teaching you that with His help you can find the strength in Him to do what you're trying to do. 
• Never give up. Keep trying. Keep the faith.
• Your proving and strengthening won't look like other's proving and strengthening, but they will come and will be for your benefit. 
• God is with you. He will not forsake you. 

Sunday Afternoon

David A. Bednar

• Moral agency can be understood as the ability and privilege to act in ways that are honest, good, and true. 
• The fundamental purposes of agency is to love one another and choose God. 
• The fear of the Lord is not an apprehension about coming into his presence to be judged. But about acknowledging to ourselves about how things really are and how things will be.

B. Corey Cuvelier 

• The journey of discipleship takes time and effort.
• Retain the name of Christ. Have it written always in your hearts. 
• Those filled with the love of God are anxious to bless everyone around them, not just their family, not just themselves, everyone in the world.  

Matthew S. Holland

• God loves and seeks to rescue all his Children. 
• Don't wallow in contentious criticism, be merciful, be slow to anger and kind to all. 
• You can be a good person in crisis, left feeling forsaken, but there is always dry ground for hope, healing and happiness in Christ. 
• Forsake not your own mercy. You have immediate access to divine help and healing. 
• Whether we are facing a deep Jonah like catastrophe or the everyday challenges of our imperfect world. The invitation is the same. Forsake not your own mercy. 

Carlos A. Godoy

• This Church doesn't attract great people, but it does make ordinary people great. 
• There were no complaints. Only smiling faces and grateful hearts. 
• Trust in Jesus and always look unto him because he will help you in the healing process. 

Dale G. Renlund

• Focus. Get over it. Do the best you can. 
• We change for the better when we focus on Christ moreso than when we focus on ourselves. 
• Charity towards all is essential to our progress.
• The reward of keeping covenants is heavenly power and strength to face the trials that come at us. 

John D. Amos

• The simple secret for happy living is to just follow God's recipe as detailed in the scriptures. The 'good news' recipe. 
• If the recipe is going wrong, add more Christ into your life. 

Ozani Farias

• If you sincerely prioritize your Scripture study each day, you will find great spiritual strength and confidence. 
• The Book of Mormon has the power to answer the questions in our souls.

Dallin H. Oaks

• Russell M. Nelson announced 200 new temples. He loved to announce new temples at the conclusion of each conference. No new temples announced this session.
• The family is ordained of God. 
• The Church of Jesus Christ is known as a family centered Church. 
• Exaltation is a family affair. 
• Every single mother can teach of the love of a Heavenly Father. 
• We are a family church. 
• Grandparents can do much to fill in the gaps when families lose or are missing a member. 
• The perfection we seek is not limited to the stressful circumstances of mortality. 
• Christ is our ultimate role model. 
• You can turn your family On if you turn your technology Off. 
• What your children really want for dinner is Time with You. 

To watch/read/listen to the talks in their entirety please visit: 

https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/general-conference/2025/10?lang=eng

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

195th Semiannual General Conference - Saturday Highlights

 Saturday Morning

Dallin H. Oaks

• Speaks as the President of the Quorum of the 12 Apostles
• President Nelson is someone to model your life after. 

Gary E. Stevenson 

• Even devout people gathered in sacred places can feel burdened from what you and your families have undergone since last conference. 
• Blessed are the peacemakers for they shall be called the children of God. 
• Can I be a peacemaker when the world is commotion, my heart is filled with fear and peace feels far away?
• Begin the most basic place to feel peace. In your hearts. Then spread to your family and then to your neighborhoods and onward. 
• Disagree without being disagreeable. 
• Build bridges not walls. 
• To build a peacemaker is to help others and then they pass it on and it goes on and on and on. 
• Kindness will do its quiet work. 
• To be peacemakers we forgive others and deliberately build others up rather than tear others down.
• Peacemaking demands action. 1. A Contention free home zone.  2. Digital bridge building. -will this build a bridge? If so send. If not. Stop. 3. Repair and reunite. 
• Peacemaking requires courage and compromise but does not require sacrifice of principle. It requires leading with an open heart and not a closed mind. Extend with open hands not closed fists. 

Tracy Y. Browning

• The singing of hymns is one of the best ways to learn the doctrine of the restored gospel. 
• Music has always been at the heart of teaching the gospel. 
• Music provides power for us to express our thoughts, testimonies, and truths. 
• God keeps his promises and offers us a refuge when we need it. 
• The Spirit and use music to engrave eternal truths on your heart. 
• Sacred music can shine the light of Christ on the hearer.
• Jesus still wants us for a sunbeam. 

Ronald M. Barcellos

• All God needs to accomplish his purposes is for us to turn our hearts to Him.
• Focus, Priorities and Motives will let us know where our hearts are. Where is our focus? Because that's where our treasure will be in our hearts. 
• Do you make the Savior a Priority in your life? 
• The Savior does not expect perfection in keeping his commandments. He does expect us to strive to keep them with all our hearts. 
• The quality of our thoughts and words is a good indication of the quality of our hearts. 
• Dedicate time daily to Christ. 

Brik V. Eyre

• Comfort first. Because Christ would Comfort First. 
• God will always remind us that we are His Children. Satan will always try to tell us differently and remind us of and label us by our weaknesses. 
• God is in relentless pursuit of you. He wants YOU. As YOU are. 
• However much you are praying. Pray more. However hard you are praying. Pray harder. 

Kelly R. Johnson

• Be reconciled to God. Align our will and actions to Him and let Him prevail in our lives. 
• Reconciliation is dependent on mercy. 
• Don't let yourself be easily shaken. Stand firm. Stay steadfast. 
• Don't let yourself become so firm that you're unwilling to change. Let yourself remain soft enough to allow yourself to change. 

Dieter F. Uchtdorf

• Getting good at anything, takes consistent self-discipline and practice. 
• Discipleship takes self-discipline. It's not a casual endeavor. It takes effort. It's a conscious choice that takes effort. 
• Our faith becomes stronger as it is tested as is tested against the opposition. It flourishes as we keep nourishing it. 
• The fire of yesterday's testimony can only warm us for so long. It needs more fuel to keep burning brightly. 
• God wants us to use and amplify our gifts so it can bless us and others. Our gifts only get better as we use them. 
• Your origin story is divine and so is your destiny. 
• You left heaven to come here but heaven has never left you.
• Your gifts may not always be flashy, but they're just as important. 
• God's expectations for us are high, but he doesn't expect us to do grand or superhuman things to get there. He knows things take time. That it takes small steps to become great. 
• Because of our Savior there is no such thing as a no-win scenario. 
• We are grateful for the steps we took yesterday, but we don't stop there. We keep moving forward. 

Saturday Afternoon

Ronald A. Rasband

• Everyone belongs to a family.
• The family is ordained of God. 
• You have family in your Savior Jesus Christ. 
• Happiness in family life is most likely to be achieved when founded upon the teachings of Jesus Christ. 
• God has given Men and Women different but Equal and Essential roles that compliment and work with each other. 

Chad H. Webb

• Take charge of your own testimony. 
• Learn to be a better Learner.

Jeremy R. Jaggi

• If the Savior is the great Connector then Satan is the Great Separator. 
• Do you do a daily check in with your Heavenly Father? 
• Christ heals all wounds. Christ makes it possible to live again. 

Kevin G. Brown

• It is in God's nature to Bless Us. 
• We are responsible for the choices we make based on the knowledge we have. 
• The gift and witness of the Holy Ghost is available to everyone. 
• A testimony is not given for temporary use. It is meant to be eternal. Because the giver is eternal. A testimony should not have an expiration date. It should not weaken or diminish. It should get stronger. 
• Who. Or What. Would you allow to take your testimony away? Don't. Let. Them. Take. It. Away.
• It is the choices we make that diminish the power of the testimony. The testimony hasn't gone anywhere. We just need to choose to reconnect with it. 
• If you Know. You Know. 

Gerrit W. Gong

• Living the gospel of Jesus Christ includes making room for ALL within. 
• A journey of gospel friendship and love begins with the first hello and no one sitting alone. 
• No one sits alone. Physically, emotionally or spiritually. 
• The Lord blesses us all when no one sits alone. 

Michael Cziesla

• Following Christ's law requires constant effort and change. It's simple but it's not always easy. 
• Find joy in your daily life. 
• The Gospel can work for us even in the most challenging of circumstances. 
• Prioritize people over processes. 

Quentin L. Cook

• The Gospel touches hearts and changes lives everywhere. 
• We can help build a Zion people where we are of one heart and one mind. 
• Be patient with yourself and the challenges you face. 
• The Gospel is not a test of knowledge. 

Saturday Evening 

Patrick Kearon

• All of us can have a new beginning through and because of Jesus Christ.
• This is a Church of new beginnings. This is a Church of fresh starts. 
• We can have new beginnings every day if we want to. We can have as many new beginnings as we need. 
• You press on. You keep striving. You keep seeking help. 
• You don't have to be who you've been before. Embrace your fresh start whether it's your first, 4th, 12th, or 100th fresh start. Keep pressing on. 
• Christ is the Author and Finisher of our Faith. Constantly writing new chapters with us. 

J. Annette Dennis

• Divine strength comes from unity. And that is why Satan is intent on dividing us. 
• The pure love of Christ is Charity. 
• Charity helps to relieve one another's burdens, not pile burdens on each other. 
• True disciples lift and build each other. 

Steven C. Barlow

• When love is freely given and is freely received. A Virtuous cycle is begun.
• We are so consumed with seeking evidence of God's love for us that we get frustrated when we don't see it. But the more we are focused on giving love to God the more we can see God's love for us. 
• How we recognize and show love is not always how another will recognize and show love. 
• We manifest our love by having a grateful heart. 
• Do you have an attitude of gratitude?

William K. Jackson

• Christ has organized his Church in such a way that it should be difficult to forget a soul within it. 
• Focus in on the people. 
• Focus on the names not the programs. 

Neil L. Andersen

• The Savior continually calls. Come unto me. 
• Is your heart softened enough to help out others without strings attached? 
• Be patient. Blessings and approval will come from God by degrees. 

To watch/listen/read the talks in their entirety, please visit: 

https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/general-conference/2025/10?lang=eng

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

So Tired

 I have to say, I was kinda expecting to crash and burn back on Wednesday maybe into Thursday. 

As I haven't really had much time to 'rest' since I got back from my vacation.

And considering the tense and semi-stressful drive I had with mental and emotional worries, and then the physical strain of driving for nearly 11 hours and then also dealing with the stress of driving in rainy weather....only to turn around and head straight into a 5 am shift at work on Monday morning and then keep running with longer shifts the rest of the week.....

I was expecting to end up with like a migraine or just .... falter much sooner than like today. 

But surprisingly I didn't. 

Until today.

Where I woke up feeling exhausted.

That sort of exhausted where you just want to turn around and go back to bed for another 12 hours because you're so tired.

Like break out the caffeine and drink it to try and stay awake first thing in the morning exhausted.

Which I haven't felt in a while.....

Yah that hit me strong this morning.

Because I've been pushing hard this week at work what with truck and trying to get other things done in the store while dealing with the stress of incompetent coworkers who you have to feel like you have to babysit the entire time because they can't get their stuff done right....or done at all....

In any case.

I've been so tired today.

And it's the sort of tired where if you sleep you end up with a headache and if you don't sleep you end up with a headache....so yah I have a headache going. 

A migraine I suppose since Tylenol and Advil have not made it go away. 

But at the same time I wasn't able to relax for longer than an hour after getting home so maybe I just didn't nap long enough.

So here's to hoping that this weekend I can rest and recover and get all my energy back to keep pushing with all the work crazy going on.

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Look at the People

 It's kinda amazing how quickly something can change. Like literally in an instant the situation can go from being one thing to being something completely different. 

For example today.

After work I was meeting up with a friend at the store because I needed to check with a gift card that I had given them for their birthday.

Because I had discovered the evening after giving them their gift card and while preparing for a trip...that I had somehow ended up with a SECOND gift card in my bag of groceries...when I'd only bought one. 

And I had no idea if the gift card that I had given to my friend was the one I had bought or the one that had stuck to the other when I hadn't realized it. 

I'd tried checking the receipt to see but didn't see any indication of which one was the right one. 

And with me going straight on vacation....we had to wait until I got back and our work schedules lined up enough that we both had time to meet up so that I could figure out which gift card was meant to be theirs.

And today was that day.

And I showed up at the store a little bit late because I had just gotten off work.

And had expected my friend to already to there waiting for me...but they'd been delayed as well.

And when I walked up to the Customer Service thing there was only two people in line.

Nice and short.

but my friend was going to be another 15ish minutes if rush hour was kind to them (it was not kind to them) and I kinda needed both gift cards to make it easier to figure out which one was the one that I had bought.

And it was kinda amazing how in the space of like...10 minutes the line went from having like 2 people in it...to having like 8 people in it. 

To be honest it made me rather frustrated. 

Like. If my friend had been there at the same time as me we would have only had two other people in front of us. But now I was looking at an ever growing line that seemed to have like 15 people now in it and just for seeing it becoming like a 30 minute ordeal just to wait in the line to be helped.

And considering I'd gotten off work right at dinner time....I was tired. I was hungry. And I was just a bit grumpy from work stuff. So to be made to wait longer and to see a long line forming when it could have been avoided.

Yah....I was rather frustrated. 

Especially considering my friend ended up being like 30 minutes late.

But at the same time....it was kinda crazy....because by the time my friend showed up?

The line had vanished.

There was once again just two people in line before us.

So the wait wasn't long at all.

Like I've seen it happen a ton at my own job. Where there's like no one in line for the register and then suddenly you have a dozen people in line out of nowhere.

But it was crazy to see it happen in a different location.

And to have it be like....dead...and then 20 minutes of crazy...and then dead again.

Like my friend had no idea that the line had gotten so long it was heading out into the main part of the store out of the customer service area.....

Only I had known because I was there standing nearby watching the line grow.

Only I was aware how it had gone from 2 people up to like 12 people and back to 2 people in like 30 minutes.

It's crazy.

Crazy how quickly things can change.

And how you have no idea what could have just occurred right before you showed up or right after you left.

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Can't You Just Work?

 Wednesdays seem to be such a problem day to work.

Which ... honestly every day at work probably has it's typical trends of being the 'problem work day' 

But considering I usually don't work Wednesdays....

the fact that whenever I do work Wednesdays it feels like something goes wrong...

Makes me less inclined to want to work Wednesdays.

Though I suppose the same could have been said last year about Tuesdays when like literally we could not afford to have anyone call out on Tuesday because no one else was available to work Tuesdays besides the people already scheduled and yet everyone decided that they must have Tuesdays off or call off Tuesdays for various reasons.

In any case.

Wednesdays.

I was already expecting the day not to go quite to plan as I figured that truck wouldn't have gotten as far as I would have wanted it to which would have left us behind for today's plans.

Which surprisingly truck was further along that expected....but the morning manager didn't get the remaining things done as quickly as expected and therefore...put us about on the timeline of delayed that was expected.

But the delays were kinda exasperated by the fact that our morning cashier decided that they wouldn't be able to work their full shift today.

Why?

Because they'd only managed to get an hour and a half of sleep last night.

Which.

On the one hand I do get the struggle. I've had bad nights with migraines where I haven't slept much.

But I've still managed to function well enough at work to...you know....stay the entire time like a good 99% of the time. I've only left work early a handful of times....and that's because of a still active migraine....not from lack of sleep.

But perhaps my priorities are way different than the younger generation. Which is "Work is first priority." 

In any case.

Morning Cashier wanted to leave around lunch time. About 3 hours earlier than scheduled.

Which meant we did not have a cashier for 3 hours.

Which meant that morning manager and I would need to take turns watching the register.

And I was being rather reasonable being like "Hey, I do not want to watch register for 3 hours. So I was thinking we could switch off. Either every half hour or every hour what do you think?" 

And Morning Manager agreed to every half hour.....

Only to try and get out of it twenty minutes later with "Oh but I'm so busy can't you switch with petcare?"

Like dude. YOU HAD ALL MORNING TO GET YOUR TASKS DONE NOT MY FAULT YOU DIDN'T GET THEM DONE.

Plus like. I have alllllll MY tasks I need to get done too. You're not Special. Why should YOU get special treatment when I too need to do things? At least I'm not making YOU do the entire 3 hour stint.

Yeesh.

In any case.

My empathy for my coworkers, despite the week long break from them. Is still at an all time low. Mostly because they keep creating more work for me and don't give me any relief in return.

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Still Processing

 It's hard to write when you've got a lot to process. Because like...you want to write...but when you don't want to process you don't want to write. 

Because a lot has happened over the last few days. And while some has been good a lot hasn't been great. 

And I'm honestly still muddling through my feelings on everything.

Like it started with dealing with a headache that turned into a migraine Saturday night. 

-Which thankfully, the Nurtec did make that go away.

To waking up to the news that President Nelson had passed away.

To finding out while I was in the beginning stages of spending the day driving back home to my Daddoo texting that he was 'safe' and that the 'shooting was no where near him." and having to wait until I got to the next gas station stop to figure out that there was a shooting at a church in Michigan and worrying about that.

To dealing with just random busy Sunday construction traffic in like all the canyons which delayed me by like an HOUR getting home because everyone decided they had to crawl through the construction areas when they didn't need to.

To having to white knuckle drive the last little bit home because it was raining but the sun was shining at the same time and at an angle that made the roads blinding white so the rain was making it hard to see the road the sun was making it hard to see the road and I was stuck behind a tarp covered semi that send foggy misty rain flying behind it in a nice misty bright white cloud that also caught the sun and made it hard to see....so like there was a good 40 minutes of driving through "heaven like conditions" wondering if I was going to make it through because it was sooo hard to see.

To going back to work on Monday with no day off from the 11 hour drive to recover and getting sent right back into the frenzy of work and figuring out what crazy happened while I was gone and getting back on track on what's happening in the store....

There's been a lot.

And like....sometimes it's too much to really want to think about....let alone write about.....hence the gap in posting the last few days....because writing just seemed like too much.

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

What's Your Job?

 There's so many jobs out there that I would have never realized were like....careers people would have as jobs, if I hadn't randomly encountered them online or on TV.

Like, while I was aware that horses needed their hooves taken care of.

I didn't really equate that Cows would also need their hooves trimmed too.

They don't need shoes put on or anything. But kinda like fingernails...cows need their hooves trimmed or adjusted if an issue pops up.

And like it's technically a job that people don't have to do. Because cows have the ability to shed their hooves over time to help get rid of issues.

But having people help treat those issues speeds up the healing process.

Or like the variety of ways people sell items online is another method I've come across.

Like using a variety of beads and a scoop and the buyer gets a random assortment of items depending on what type of bead and amount of the beads are scooped up.

The one I discovered today was the fact that people who aren't paleontologists and aren't in the archaeologist/sciencey field....can turn finding fossils and selling into a career. 

And like it was something I was vaguely aware was a possibility I suppose.

I mean people who sell fossils have to get their fossil teeth and shells and such from somewhere. 

But like the show I encountered while channel surfing wasn't your tiny "here's some teeth. Here's a bunch of shells." sort of fossil hunting.

No they were ranchers/farmers who have fossil beds on their lands and during part of the year they go searching for fossils like actual SKELETONS of DINOSAURS to dig out and sell to MUSEUMS.

Like. WHAT?!

Like I didn't know that was a thing.....

At least not for the full on skeletons of dinosaurs.

I mean last year my family and I kinda encountered the concept on our way to the eclipse because we stopped by a local rock shops that sold smaller fossils and the lady in charge mentioned that ...either they dig the land or the farmers nearby dig the land? In either case someone in the area had fossils that they could find on their land that they dig up and sell.

And it's like....I didn't know that people could do that.

It's kinda a cool career honestly.

One that could make you stupid rich too if you find the right type of fossil.

Like the episode I caught they had a pretty complete skeleton of a T-Rex that they were looking to sell for 4 MILLION DOLLARS.

WHAT.

Like definitely a lucrative career.....if you find the right vein of dinosaur bones.

So yah.

Interesting the random careers you come across when you're channel or internet surfing.

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Breakdowns

 There's a thing about trust being broken....

In that you recognize that things cannot be the same after that point.

And yet the heart yearns for those times before the trust was broken.

And yet the mind is going back to all those past interactions wondering just....just when did things start to go wrong. Was it lies from the beginning? Was it a slow decline? Was it just a wrong decision that caught brought to the light?

Who knows for sure what caused things to come to a head.

But this has been a year where I've watched multiple friendships between people just break down. Vanish. Alter. Change. 

Some have repaired themselves, though you can see things are not quite the same.

Some have fully ended. With no conversation taking place at all.

Others have become solely professional because they still work at the same location. 

And it's just .... I hurt for them.

For those who are hurting because of the decisions and actions of others.

For those who thought they had found their bestie. Their ride and die. Their confident.

And then get betrayed. To confide their fears and then have their friend turn around and become those fears. 

It makes it hard to trust people. I can see that. 

Makes it hard to want to make friends.

Because you wonder....how long will this friendship actually last IF a friendship is established.

The heart can only take rejection so many times before one shuts down.

And I've seen it happen a lot this year.

And it's just interesting to like...pick up pieces and clues that things weren't quite right. That things hadn't been what they seemed. 

Pick out the things you had ignored because they were your friend. And then realized that they were just taking advantage of you. 

It's been on my mind a lot this week. 

Mostly because I am the sort of person where I hold onto my friends as much as I can. 

So it boggles my mind that others would just...do things that would cause their friendships to dissolve and break.

It hurts. 

And I'm probably going to be chewing on it for a while more.

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Will You Get It? For that Price?

 There's an interesting thing about collecting rocks/crystals....

And it's when you need to decide if the price is worth it for the rock.

Because like....if you end up in a tourist trap. Where all the visitors come to the state to shop when they're in town....things are going to be marked up as a bit more expensive. Because the tourists don't always know better.

They're buying the experience as well as the items really.

But then there's people like me....who go to gem fairs....where I know that I can get that $10 rock for $3. That $20 rock for $6. 

And it then becomes a question of .... is the rock worth it for that price....when I know I could potentially get it at the next gem fair for a much better price. 

And really....my decisions today mostly came down to availability. 

Like. Are these rocks that I SEE at the Gem Fairs I visit at home? Yes or no?

If yes. Then less likely to go for them when they're at tourist prices.

If No? Then I'm more likely to go for it because even though I don't quite like the price and know that I could get it elsewhere for less.... I haven't recently SEEN them anywhere else for LESS to GET. 

I visited two rock shops today. 

One...had the entire store half off. 

Which was great! Because it brought most of their products back down to Gem Fair prices and therefore meant that I felt more comfortable getting more rocks from them.

Even though I do tend to wonder when stores...even at the gem fairs...do their entire setups at Half Off or other such sells....if they marked the prices up before hand...so that the rocks are actually selling at their normal prices but because they increased the prices before starting the 'sale' everyone buys the products because they think they're getting a 'good' deal.

Hard to tell....Like yes I got the rocks for Gem Fair prices....and knowing that everyone needs to make a bit of a profit I can get having a bit of a mark up on their rocks. So I know in regular stores my typical $5 rock may be double if not triple that.

Plus who knows how tariffs are affecting prices. Like I noticed at the gem fair this past weekend that some items had increased in price a bit. So I'm sure tariffs are affecting things.

Regardless. 

Got more rocks at the half off store, most of them stones I haven't seen in a while or had been looking for at the Gem Fair but didn't find this past weekend. 

The other rock shop in the area was probably considered your more 'high end' one. Selling the fancy expensive jewelry...and charging $5 carvings at twice to 4 times the price. 

So I was less inclined to buy things there...even though I saw a ton of carvings I hadn't seen before and wanted to get...the prices were high enough that I was like "maaaybe I'll wait and see if I could get them at the next gem fair."

But there were a couple of other stones that I'd been softly looking for but haven't seen.

One was brought up just last weekend when I briefly encountered a coworker at the Gem Fair and they mentioned that they'd been looking for "Desert Rose" but hadn't seen in and asked if I'd seen any. 

And like I knew what the stone looked like. But hadn't actively seen it at the Gem Fair...

It didn't mean it wasn't there as it's a more raw stone and I tend to gloss over those as I prefer the more polished and carved stones. 

But it did seem like it had been a while since I'd seen them at the Gem Fair.

But at this rock shop I found a whole box filled with them.

So of course I had to get a couple for my coworker as they weren't that pricey all things considered and it was something they'd been looking for. 

The other is a stone I've been kinda softly keeping an eye out for but haven't really seen at the Gem Fairs recently either.

And that's Green Goldstone. 

Which as a manmade stone....the manmade stones aren't always as popular at the fairs....

but Goldstone in particular...when it is around...tends to be in its base Orangish Goldstone shade. 

Or occasionally in that purplyblueish stage.

Green Goldstone? Not so much. 

And while the palmstone I was looking at was about twice the price as I thought it should be....I haven't SEEN it at the Gem Fairs recently and I don't know WHEN I'll see it again.

So again, even though I didn't like the price. I did want the stone. So I went through with it and bought the Green Goldstone. 

Because it's one I haven't seen in a while and I wanted it.

So yah.

It's interesting....at what point is the price worth it?

At what point do you go "Yes it's more money than I want to spend but I NEED IT because I don't SEE it." 

I mean the opposite happened at the first store in some ways...where I ended up getting doubles of a couple of stones when I may have only gotten one because the price was half off. So I could get 2 for the price of one really. 

So yah. When do you buy? And when do you hang back?

It was an interesting dilemma for sure today that I face in those two rock shops.

Especially considering that most of my rock shopping has only been at the gem fairs for the past little bit.

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi 

Wind a Blowin

 Gotta say. I'm not really a fan of wind. 

Like I like that it indicates that a storm is most likely on it's way because it's showing that there's a changing of pressure happening. 

But when the wind is blowing rather strongly like whipping the trees around or breaking off branches or shaking the house strongly.

Yah...no. I don't like it.

Like at home we've had gusts of winds strong enough to toss the deck chairs about. 

And I haven't liked dealing with the wind at home either. Though the house feels a bit more secure.

But where I'm currently staying?

The wind kinda has me on edge a bit more....

Because I'm out on the plains.

I'm in an area that has had tornadoes happen in neighboring counties.

So like whenever the wind starts picking up and blowing and shaking the house?

I'm always wondering if there's a tornado gonna come.

Unlikely.

But yah. It feels a bit more unprotected even while indoors when there's just open plains all around.

And while I have been enjoying the rain and watching the clouds zooming by.

I really would much prefer having calm sunny days while I'm out here so I can enjoy the outdoors. 

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Outside Light

It's crazy how the lighting in a place can change how one is feeling when you're inside a home.

Like how sitting with all the windows doors and blinds closed....can make you feel one way.

But then the moment you open up things and let the outside light in....the whole feeling of the house changes.

Maybe it's just me being used to having more natural light shining into my home when I'm home. 

But it was interesting today how a lot of the tension I was feeling eased up a bit once I could see the outside world and get the natural light shining in.

Which does make me wonder about those individuals who live in homes who are like always shut up. Doors always closed. Blinds always closed. No way to see outside. No light coming inside.

It can't be good for the mind.

Like I could feel a difference from just a few hours....I can't quite imagine how people would feel after days or weeks or months or even years....

But then again....everyone is different. People have different tolerances for lights.

Like I tend to like more yellow lights inside my homes because the white lights irritate me.

But I'm sure there's many people where it's opposite.

But yah.

Note to self bring in more natural light. 

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Do You Know That Noise?

 It's interesting the ambient sounds that you become used to when you live in specific areas and how those ambient sounds could mean something completely different depending on where you've lived and where you're visiting or moved to. 

For example. 

I'm currently staying out in the country. 

The city is a long drive away. 

Wide open fields and such.

But it's the sort of country living where you cant take your rifle out back and shoot some rounds for fun because there's nobody living behind you because the neighbors are for the most part so far apart it takes fifteen minutes to walk to the next home. 

Me? Even though I live in surburbia...I don't usually hear gunfire. 

I've wondered before. But it's like.....fireworks? Maybe gunshot? But most often with a college being nearby its mroe than likely fireworks.

Out here? The sounds to me were like "Is someone banging on a metal sheet?" 

And my godparents are like "No, the neighbor's are shooting." and then list off the specific type of weapon they're using.

Which I find impressive that they can tell what type of gun is shot just by the sound. 

Especially because I would have no idea. To me it just sounds like someone working about making loud noise building something. Though knowing I'm out in the country and people use guns to defend against wild animals and such I did wonder if it was gunfire I was hearing.

But like....they also have a neighbor who's recently moved to the country from a city where if you heard gunfire someting REALLY BAD happened. So it took that neighbor and is still taking that neighbor a while to equate the sounds of gunfire to "oh they're just shooting for fun, hitting targets on their land." Or "Probably just killed a varmit.' variety. 

Like it's just so interesting how sounds can affect how you react to an environment, especially when you are constantly around said sound or are rarely around said sound. 

It's never something I considered.

But like it makes sense.

Like there are people who can tell you what kind of car is coming up on you just by the sound of the engine.

And like birders can identify different bird species by their calls even if calls sound similar. 

I know that at work I'm sensitive to when the Fish System turns on and off and I can sometimes hear when water levels in the sumps have gotten too low because they make certain noises. 

So like....

It's just interesting. What sounds we do pay attention to and which ones we don't. 

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Off On a Journey

 I do have to say, that I do enjoy driving. 

Like just getting on the road and a few hours later you're miles and miles and maybe an entire state or two away from home.

It's kinda amazing how quickly we can suddenly be in a totally different place.

The only downside to roadtrips is when you see amazing scenery... and being unable to take a picture when you're the one driving. 

But still. 

It's nice. 

To just get out and get away.

Be somewhere different for a while. 

Though I do have to say that drivers are just as frustrating....like why did everyone suddenly decide that they needed to drive 10 miles UNDER the posted speed limit?????

I encountered it so many times on my drive and it's just left me so confused.

Like sure. Go the speed limit. That's normal.

Go slightly faster than the speed limit.

but UNDER?

WHY?!

Like I get it when it's bigger rigs because it is hard to go fast when you're towing something heavy.

But like regular car cars were going stupid slow.

And I don't get it.

Why is everyone going slower than the posted speed limit?

That's MORE of a safety hazard than going faster. Because if people behind you aren't paying attention and come up on you faster than expected they're more likely to hit you.

It's just....so weird.

I don't get it.

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Regular Shopping Trip

 Gotta say I love going to the Gem Fairs. 

For one. SO MANY SHINY THINGS!

But also for two. So many rocks!

Which is bad because I always overspend at them despite setting myself a huge budget lol.

Probably by this point I could set up my own table and sell all the rocks I've collected....but I love all my rocks...I don't want to get rid of them yet.

But in any case.

I really enjoy going to the gem fairs here.

Especially because I've become a regular enough that certain vendors have started to recognize me.

Which is always fun when they recognize me because we can have little conversations.

But also because they're willing to give me slight discounts on the rocks I buy.

So it's always nice to come away with rocks that cost slightly less than adverstized.

Which probably doesn't help my spending habits at all at the gem fair.

But it is nice to just be known in the area and to have people who like seeing you. 

So yah.

Love the gem fair.

So much.

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Seriously. What Was Accomplished?

 *exhales* 

I get that work can get busy. Especially in the evening. 

There's usually a rush of people right after the mid manager leaves. So the last couple of hours that the store is opened can be a rather hectic time. Especially if you get needy customers that demand your time and attention.

But at the same time... for the most part, when I close, I don't let that affect how closing goes. 

Like yes, there are bad nights where facing is hard to get done and sometimes it's just a cursory facing at that to make it look kinda nice. 

But like....

You would think after being told that the store hadn't been faced and that the PRIORITY after I left for the evening for the closing manager was to FACE THE STORE would be that the store would GET FACED.

But NOooooooooo

Like on the surface walking into the building this morning things looked okay.

But when I went to check on Cat Food. The section I specifically pointed out as needing to be faced so that we could do counts in the morning. 

What did I find?

Exactly.

An untouched section.

Like sure. I could see on the very last aisle where my manager had started facing. 

But the rest of the section?

Nada. 

Zip.

It was untouched. No effort made whatsoever to make the section look pretty. 

And it was just....irritating. Frustrating. I was annoyed to the point where I was giving myself a headache because my closing manager had ONE TASK and FAILED TO DO IT.

And of course the excuse was "It got busy right after you left. I was doing a, b, c and d and by the time I looked up it was half an hour before we closed and I hadn't done any of the closing tasks yet." 

But the closing manager 'tried' to get cat faced.....by telling our Petcare person to face it....which they obviously did not do or IF they did it they did NOT do it RIGHT because it looked untouched.

And it's frustrating because like the closing manager should be WALKING THE STORE before leaving for the night to make sure things look okay ---which yes I don't always do that, but I am usually walking the store right at close to make sure there's no customers AND I'd have already faced the areas so if anything it would be looking for obvious items out of place. 

But like.....it's so frustrating. So. Very. Frustrating. To set someone to a task and to have it unfinished. Just GAH.

I'm so glad I'm gone from work for the next little bit because I've had it. 

I need a break from the work stress. Stat. 

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

What Was Accomplished?

 I kinda hate to say it...

But it's probably a really good thing that I came in to work today to cover my other manager's shift. 

Because like....if she had come in...she wouldn't have worked truck because she probably wouldn't have been feeling well. And if she hadn't come in and no one else could cover...then truck wouldn't have been touched much regardless....of her presence or not.

But like. My presence made a tangible difference in how much of yesterday's remaining truck got knocked out today.

Which is great in that I won't be caught off guard at 'how much' of truck was left when I go in in the morning. 

But it would have been quite a mountain of work left for me to slog through compared to the hill I managed to chip it down to today.

Which really just begs the question of like.... WHAT WERE MY OTHER MANAGERS DOING ALL DAY!?!?! AHHHHHHH.

Like Yes, morning manager as the opening tasks that need to be done to ensure the store is ready for the day. But that at most takes a couple of hours. 

But when I came in a couple of hours after that point...it seemed like they'd just barely started working on truck right before I arrived....which isn't great considering the store had been opened for a couple of hours by that point....

Like We still had quite a bit of truck left. Like at least a half pallet of dog food that I can remember. Maybe two? since the manager was working another one...maybe it was an unfinished one from last night. 

But like....

None of the totes had been touched. The cat cans hadn't been finished last night and so those had to be finished.

It was just like....

Trying to figure out just how much would have been done if I'd actually not been present.

Like morning manager got the rest of the dog food put out and was working on a cart or two of totes that I could tell....

And when closing manager came in I had them start working on cat totes...which was like...maybe 8 boxes? And I ended up doing ONE of those boxes and it took them like SIX HOURS to work on SEVEN BOXES. Like it DOES NOT TAKE AN HOUR PER BOX WHY ARE YOU SO SLOW?!?! AHHHH.

Like in my eight hour shift I managed to do two carts filled with cat cans, 16 boxes of petcare totes, a cat totes, and a cart and a half filled with dog stuff all the while multitasking helping in petcare, picking orders, covering lunches, and other things. Like....I did SO MUCH in my eight hours....

And like....if I hadn't been there.....what all would have actually gotten done? A couple of pallets of dog food? maybe 8 boxes of cat? MAYBE? IF the closing manager WORKED on truck at all? Because opening manager is NOT GREAT at communicating what needs to be done. So maybe Truck wouldn't have been touched AT ALL once morning manager had left. 

It's just....frustrating....how slow some people move and like....what doesn't end up being a priority on their list even when they're told it should be a priority. 

Like I mentioned multiple times to the closing manager that "we're 4 hours behind on truck so we need to get this done." and they still moved SO SLOW. Just. *bangs head against wall* 

I'm not looking forward to tomorrow. Because it feels like I'll be the one doing all the work. AGAIN.

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

It Was Expected

 It's kinda exhausting ... to mentally have to prepare yourself to not get a day off. 

Like since last Saturday that's kinda been my mindset...maybe even before then. 

Because my EL manager has been sick for a while...dealing with morning sickness and a couple other issues on top of that. 

But like.... the illness has been bad enough she's had to go to the hospital a few times because she can't hold down food, and barely can hold down water on a good day.

Which isn't great when you're trying to get nutrients for yourself and for your little one. 

I'm really hoping that this is just a first trimester illness for her and things will improve after that point...because having to deal with 9 months of stress is not great for her.

And not great for us either. 

Because it sucks at the moment to schedule her and wonder "will she be able to come in today." 

Hence my mindset the past week or so. 

Just mentally preparing to have to come in on my day off, or stay longer for a shift, or go without a middle manager and not be able to take a lunch. 

And even when she does make it into the store....she's basically a ghost manager. Because if she's not in the bathroom throwing up then she's hiding in an office trying to not throw up. 

So while she's present...she's not present....

So it came as no surprise when I received the call tonight.... that she's called out for tomorrow....on my day off ... and that I was asked if I was able to come in to cover her shift.

Which yah. I am able to.

I'd already mentally prepared myself for the possibility. 

But it would be nice to just be able to you know.... relax on a day off without worrying about how the store is doing or how the EL is doing and how coverage is going. 

Like...I'm going on vacation this weekend.....and I'll be out of the store for a while....

And it's like...will the other managers be okay without me there? Especially if the EL is constantly calling out? 

Like we haven't managed to fill our empty manager position. 

I can't imagine how well it's going to go with us being down 2 managers...and maybe a third manager if the EL keeps calling out for illness....

I've wondered more than once if I should just cancel the vacation and stick around.

But at the same time....

I'm kinda tired of catering to everyone else's issues. 

I've had this vacation planned for a while now. I had no idea my EL was expecting when I did my vacation plans. I was trying to plan it where we'd be fine with coverage.

Like...I was doing all I could to make sure we'd be fine when I was gone.

And I hate that it feels like I'm screwing over the store by going on vacation...when I did everything I could to ensure that this week would be an okay week to go. 

It's frustrating.

So frustrating. 

But at least I was already mentally prepared for tomorrow. So I can get tomorrow's shift out of the way and then my obligation to help out at work for coverage will be done for the week. 

*fingers crossed* that everything goes well.

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Worn Down

 The thing about being stressed is that .... after a while, it kinda wears you down.

And usually it's easy enough to head it off. By resting. Getting enough sleep etc.

But I've been pushing myself a bit more the past week or so because we've been trying to get a ton of stuff done before I head out on vacation, but also because there's been so many people calling out sick this week that it's messed with plans and schedules and such.

So I haven't been able to rest and relax as much as I've wanted to. 

and even if I am resting I'm probably stressing in my subconscious because I've been worrying about how work is going to function while I'm gone.

Add into that going in on my day off yesterday to cover for 3 coworkers who called out sick....3 coworkers who I've interacted with in the past few days....

It's no surprise that today I've been feeling a bit crummy.

Achy muscles. Tightness in the chest. A slight dryness to the throat. A slight runniness to the nose....

All the signs that I'm probably coming down with something. A minor cold at least. 

I hope it's just a minor cold.

Because I do not want whatever crazy my coworkers got because it sounds much worse.

But it also has me stressing out more because I've been looking forward to this vacation for like a month now....and to be at the finish line and to get maybe sick?

Yah. I'm so frustrated at it. 

Because if I get sick I won't be going. I'm on driving by myself anywhere if I'm feeling crummy. Plus I don't want to get my family I'm visiting sick....

So right now I'm in emergency. "TRY EVERYTHING TO AVOID IT!" mode.

Which mostly involves just resting/sleeping and drinking lots and lots of liquids to try and flush out anything in my system ASAP. 

Because I would much rather be out having fun on a vacation than home sick and miserable.

Hopefully I can manage to get this slight cold gone within the next day or too.

Though tomorrow is going to test it for sure since I have a long 10 hour shift in front of me.

Ugh.

Wish me luck.

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Calling Out

I have to say that I am counting down the days until I can head out on vacation because this past week has been a trial of dealing with fire after fire at work where plans don't go to plan and I forsee this upcoming week before I vanish being even more of a trial because it always feels like work likes to catch fire right before I leave to go anywhere.

Take today for example. 

We had our Morning Petcare call out sick last night. Which I was aware of but was able to find coverage for.

BUT THEN a couple of hours after I had left our Morning Cashier also called last night to ALSO CALL OUT for today. Leaving us without a morning Cashier. 

And the cashier said she would contact others and let us know if she found anyone...but we're not sure if she actually found anyone....needless to say....we were without a morning cashier this morning.

AND THEN this morning the Petcare chat gets a text because our Closing Petcare is ALSO calling out SICK but they tried calling out early enough in the morning that the store wasn't opened yet so they couldn't reach the store.

And it's like. Seriously?

THREE PEOPLE? Calling out in ONE DAY?

*exhales*

Like the odds aren't high for that to happen but SERIOUSLY?!

And it literally sucks for Petcare because at the moment we only have FOUR people who are actively petcare. 

And TWO of them were sick and ONE of them was already covering the other and ONE was on vacation. 

Which leaves NO one to cover. 

.... Except me.

Which was tricky because while I could cover I also had to watch my hours to avoid going into overtime. So I could only come in for a handful of hours and not an entire shift. 

So a different manager who also had a handful of hours to spare also ended up coming in to help cover a bit of the cashiering but also a bit of the petcare shifts until I could get in to cover the rest of petcare and it's just like....

WHY?

It's Soo frustrating. 

And now I'm really really expecting this week to not go well.

Because basically every single person in petcare requested at least some time off this week. And if half of the crew is on vacation and the other half is sick.... WHO IS GOING TO WORK IN PETCARE?

I honestly don't know.

And it doesn't leave me hopeful at all that things are going to go well while I'm gone on vacation either.

It leaves me wondering if I should actually be going on vacation, but at the same time I'm getting stressed out enough at work that I really need a break from everyone else's drama before I snap.

*exhales*

Hopefully things go better than I expect.

But we'll see.

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Do A Little More Please

 I already knew today's plan was going to go a bit off the rails when it came to work because I'd been informed that our morning petcare person had called out sick....and unfortunately no one was available to cover the shift. 

Which meant that our morning manager would need to do a quick open of petcare before the store opened. 

Not the most ideal as we've been planning to get a bunch of resets done today and things have already been thrown off multiple times this week with people getting sick and other factors out of our control.

So to have Petcare also getting sick and causing a delay in tasks....

Yah. Not ideal.

But needed. 

And I wasn't too concerned with this manager opening petcare as they have done it before and did it well enough I figured they'd get most of it done before I came in.....though I did have my misgivings about it because like.... I was wanting to expect the best case scenario. But wasn't putting my hopes on actually getting the best case scenario. 

As I told my closing manager who was contacting my opening manager about the plan for the morning, to let them know that I would take over and do the rest of opening once I came in for my mid shift. 

And that's a bit where my misgivings began...because like....how much would this manager actually DO knowing that I would be in to take over in opening petcare a couple of hours after the store opened?

Would it change their plan knowing I was coming in in comparison to there being no one in until later in the day? 

Who knew.

Best case scenario would be the scenario I came into last time they had to open petcare which was that I just needed to feed the fish and we were golden. 

Expected case would be that they'd only be able to get the back rooms and cat done, leaving me to do the rest of the floor and the fish tasks. 

Since they were the only manager on duty this morning and also needed to complete all their Manager tasks too that need to be done before the store opened....

I was kinda thinking the latter case would the the situation I would walk into. That I would need to feed the fish and the animals on the floor while the 'off floor tasks' of the back rooms and cats would be completed. 

*exhales*

But when I came in a couple of hours after we opened and checked in with my morning manager to see what needed to be done....

They stated that they'd only done the cats. And had pulled some dead fish.

That was it. 

And it left me just.....frustrated and disappointed.

Because like why would you not at least open the back rooms too? It took me like maybe 15 minutes total. Not that long to do so. 

And it was kinda expected because we have animals in our iso rooms who have meds that need to be given both morning and evening currently so they kinda need those meds IN THE MORNING. 

So I had to clarify with them the expectations on ensuring that the backrooms get opened before the store is opened.

But yah....

It was frustrating because while that manager had their own agenda of Manager tasks that they were also working to complete before they left for the day....

I too had my own tasks I needed to do.

And it kinda felt like this manager shoved all of petcare onto me so that they could focus solely on their own tasks.

Which yes, I have way more experience in petcare and can get it all done much quicker than everyone else.

But still. A bit more equality would have been appreciated. 

I had my own scans I could have been doing. My own resets I needed to get done.

All of which ended up delayed by a couple of hours because I had to open far more of petcare than expected and also work with all the petcare customers and such.

So yah.

Not the greatest Saturday I've walked into.

But I managed to get everything that I could get done done. So ha!

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Making It Fit

 There's something satisfying about accomplishing a task that seems near impossible. 

We had a truck come in earlier in the week. 

A little larger than normal pallet wise...but also in our overstock.

And I'm not sure if it's just because we didn't manage to work enough of the back room stock out onto the floor this past week....or if the DC just sent us waaaay too much of certain product with the expectation that that product would have sold enough so that we could fit the new product on the shelves when it came in only for it to not fit...

But well. 

It didn't fit.

We've had a flat cart and a shopping cart of various types of cat food in our receiving area since Truck came in that should have been placed in our overstock shelves....only said overstock shelves were stocked full of product. 

And this morning, it was my goal to get as much food out onto the floor as I could. So that I could actually get all of our overstock to fit into the overstock area without it overflowing elsewhere.

And I managed it!!!

It took a bit of finagling and such because for all the cat stuff we've sold this week....it was all product that we didn't have more of in the back. So while I wasn't able to put out as much stock as I was hoping to put out....I did manage to get enough out to jigsaw in everything else so it all fit onto the proper shelves and such. 

Which is great!

Until you consider that we have another truck coming in in a few days....I'm hoping we can get more product out to the shelves before that so the back room is emptier in preparation for the new stuff flowing in.

But we'll see. 

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Ripple Effects

 I feel for my coworkers. 

Like. 

With the events that happened on campus yesterday. 

I'm affected...but not that affected.

There's a connection. It's my school. I was on campus recently. I know the area. I work nearby.

But I wasn't there.

My coworkers though?

Not so much.

Interacting with them today it was interesting to see the various takes on it.

From the "Oh I wasn't there but I had friends and family who were there who saw everything."

to "I wasn't there but I live in the apartments nearby so I'm affected because of the helicopters and the blocked roads and the lockdown that happened."

to "I was eating lunch in the courtyard nearby and heard the shot, saw the people running, and so I took off running." 

It's...it's intense. To have to field all those different emotions all my coworkers are going through.

To try and lend an understanding ear and be there for them. And support them.

Especially to my one coworker who had to run. They were literally shaking as they were telling me about it. 

Like that's trauma right there.

And it hurts that so many people were affected because of one person. Because they felt they had to act in such a horrible manner.

And I'm left trying to figure out how to help out my coworkers to try and ease their pain to help bring light back into their lives. To make it better for them so that they can get through another day. Get out of their heads. Move forward. and like...rebuild the trust. Rebuild the security.

I feel for my coworkers.

That is not an event I would want anyone to have to go through. 

Especially since they're still searching for answers. Still searching for the suspect. 

I feel like there's still going to be a sense of unease for a while. Until he's found. 

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Losing the Safe Feeling

 It's been one of those days that's been ... hard to kinda ... reflect? Reflect on. 

One of those days filled with a lot of Doom scrolling to try and understand why and how and for what purpose. 

There was a political influencer shot and killed at my alma mater today. 

Which I was only vaguely aware of this dude before the events of today. But from what I've seen....I would disagree with a lot of his stances. If not all of them. 

Mostly because he's aligned with the political party that I absolutely despise at the moment. Nothing good is coming from that current administration and I am doing my best to stay far far far far far away from it and anyone who has anything positive to say about what they're doing.

That being said.

I do not believe anyone should have been gunned down like that.

It's horrible. It's despicable. 

Especially because I hear his wife and kids were right there on the front row.

Like. Sure. There's a difference of opinion. 

But no one. No One. Should be a witness to that. No one should have their spouse or parent taken away like that. No one should have to go to bed tonight knowing that their loved one isn't there with them.

I've seen video. And it's awful seeing just how quickly life can be cut short. How events can go from positive 'let's talk it out and debate it' moments to screams and terror and trauma.

I feel for those people who witnessed it and the trauma all the students must be going through now. To have that safety net cut away from them. To now have that moment etched into their minds. Like how can one go back to school after such an event? Walk into that courtyard or even by that courtyard after such a thing?

And it's struck home in multiple ways.

Not just because THAT's MY SCHOOL. 

I've walked those halls. Been in that courtyard.

I was literally there a couple weekends ago with friends Pokemon hunting for fun. I was literally in that courtyard! I had sat at the top of the bowl by the fountains watching a child and their parents play along the stones nearby. 

It hits hard. 

That school has been a safe place for me for years. Like I haven't been to college in over a decade. But I still drop by on occasion. Mostly to just catch Pokemon on community events. But like. That was a safe place. And it hurts to know that violence happened there.

It's nerve wracking knowing that the shooter is still at large. 

Like I work minutes from campus. 

My job is right there.

If the shooter is local there's a huge chance I may have encountered them at some point in the past. Whether at my job or somewhere like grocery shopping. 

There's just that sense of safety that's been shaken.

Like the likelyhood of me specifically being a target is low.

The shooter clearly had a motive and one target. 

So it's unlikely that my safety is actually a concern in this particular case.

But it's worrisome. Knowing how close danger can be to you. Knowing that someone was able to do that right here in College town. 

So it's not surprising that I've been doomscrolling all day. Looking for footage of the shooter. Putting on the amateur detective hat and trying to figure out how they got on the roof from what I know of campus. Figure out where they may have gone. What routes they may have taken to get away. Wondering if they left the area or tried to blend in. If they jumped on the nearby highway or fled into the city. 

Also just find it amazing how the modern age makes it so there's a higher chance of there being footage of the shooter. Of the person being found. Like even now there's been a couple different perspective videos released from people on campus who just happened to film something suspicious or happened to have the right angle during the event to capture the person in the distance. 

There's just so much. 

So much to comprehend. 

And I'm kinda grateful that I was off today and home safe. 

Because I don't know how I would have handled it if I'd found out all this while I was at work. Where I was much closer to the shooter's location. 

Not sure how I'll handle it tomorrow when I go in to work...since the shooter is still at large.....

Hopefully they find the person soon.

Because again. No one deserves to go like that. No matter what their opinion or stance or belief is. 

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi