My brain was still struggling to...idk recalibrate? This morning from the nuclear migraine I had yesterday.
As I did something that I haven't done....in well forever. Probably two or three years really.
I accidentally left my phone home.
Which...should have been traumatizing.
I mean, it was only like a month or so ago?
That I got to work only to discover that my phone hadn't charged over night and I hadn't brought my portable battery pack with me and so it died within like...two hours of me arriving at work.
And I was lowkey trying not to freak out over it.
But I was totally freaking out over my phone dying and not being able to contact anyone or know of things going on.
But today?
I wasn't....freaking out.
I was just...resigned to the fact that I would be phoneless when I pulled into the parking lot this morning, went to grab my phone from my coat pocket...only to find it not there...and not on the seat next to me, or on the passenger seat by my purse...or in my purse....
Which is then when I realized that in my sluggish attempts to get ready that morning, and heat up my heat pack, and gather my foods and such for work....
That I'd probably left my phone on the counter at home and had just assumed it was in my pocket when I left, not realizing I hadn't put it in there in the first place.
And like I said.
I probably should have been freaking out.
Because again...that's what I basically did when my phone died.
But apparently leaving my phone home is different than it dying on me.
Or else I'm currently in a...less paranoid state of mind than I was back when my phone died.
(As I do go through phases where I tend to....worry more on some days than on others.)
But today...
Not so much freaking out.
I did end up using the work phones to call Kikay and left a message on her voicemail to basically let everyone know that I was without my phone at work that way those I usually talk to would know that I would know why I wouldn't be responding to any potential messages I might get and be unable to respond to.
I did have the half hearted thoughts of trying to go back for my phone.
Like taking my lunch break to go run home and get it and such.
But at the same time, I was still recovering from yesterday's migraine. So my energy levels were....low. And taking my entire lunch break to drive home to get my phone and come back...seemed like unnecessary stress. Especially since it was just like...an eight hour shift without my phone.
And if I went on my lunch at my normal time...I would be going home like three hours later anyway.
So why avoid the hassle and just go without my phone for the day?
Thankfully.
I didn't need to.
As my roomie, while she was getting ready to leave for her job a couple hours after I had left, happened to notice my phone still on the counter and was like ()_()
And took the time out of her day to detour over to my work and bring my phone to me!
YAY!! :D
I didn't have to go phoneless! WOOT!
^^;;
I have awesome roomies.
And I do admit that I was lowkey hoping someone at home would notice that I'd accidentally left my phone there and would bring it to me.
Because I don't know any of my roomies numbers so I couldn't just text them and let them know to bring me my phone.
So I'm grateful my roomie noticed and brought it to me. ^^;; Yay. :D
So happy.
Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Thursday, October 31, 2019
Wednesday, October 30, 2019
Laid Up
I woke up feeling a bit more tired than normal.
Which, considering the stress I felt at the dentist yesterday....
I wasn't too surprised that I hadn't ended up sleeping well enough.
But I figured I would 'wake up' at work.
As even when I'm tired, I usually perk up a bit once I've been up and going for a little while.
That didn't happen.
It seemed my body had decided that it was tired.
And I knew that I was at the bad stage of tired because I could feel an ache growing behind my eyes.
And my ability to appear 'awake and well' fading as the day wore on.
Because if there's an ache behind my eyes.
That usually means that I need to crash.
And sleep for like three hours or so to recharge basically.
So that's what I did when I finally got off work.
Because not even grabbing a Dr. Pepper after my lunch break helped to perk me up.
Nope.
I was just at that "Go to bed" tired stage.
Only.
It didn't work.
Instead of waking up feeling better and more awake.
I woke up with a major migraine pounding away behind my skull.
Which is annoying.
Especially when there wasn't anything particularly stressful about today.
Even though yesterday was a different story.
But it was one of those migraines where it was...difficult to treat mostly because my stomach didn't want to stay settled, so it was risky taking medicine to help relax my tense muscles because I was barely able to keep crackers down.
So I ended up on the couch downstairs, heat pack over my eyes and across my shoulders with the lights dimmed and the TV turned on low as background noise -yay Baseball game-
As with nuclear migraines my brain tends to end up going into a loop sort of thinking where it just keeps replaying the same snippet of words or song over and over and over and over and over again.
-This time being the song "Creature in the tub"
And I needed something to break that loop.
So having random baseball commentary helped a bit.
But yah.
I ended up laid up on the couch for the rest of the evening.
And only began feeling better just after 11.
*exhales*
I'm glad it's faded enough that I probably won't wake up with the migraine still there tomorrow.
But we'll see how that goes.
Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Which, considering the stress I felt at the dentist yesterday....
I wasn't too surprised that I hadn't ended up sleeping well enough.
But I figured I would 'wake up' at work.
As even when I'm tired, I usually perk up a bit once I've been up and going for a little while.
That didn't happen.
It seemed my body had decided that it was tired.
And I knew that I was at the bad stage of tired because I could feel an ache growing behind my eyes.
And my ability to appear 'awake and well' fading as the day wore on.
Because if there's an ache behind my eyes.
That usually means that I need to crash.
And sleep for like three hours or so to recharge basically.
So that's what I did when I finally got off work.
Because not even grabbing a Dr. Pepper after my lunch break helped to perk me up.
Nope.
I was just at that "Go to bed" tired stage.
Only.
It didn't work.
Instead of waking up feeling better and more awake.
I woke up with a major migraine pounding away behind my skull.
Which is annoying.
Especially when there wasn't anything particularly stressful about today.
Even though yesterday was a different story.
But it was one of those migraines where it was...difficult to treat mostly because my stomach didn't want to stay settled, so it was risky taking medicine to help relax my tense muscles because I was barely able to keep crackers down.
So I ended up on the couch downstairs, heat pack over my eyes and across my shoulders with the lights dimmed and the TV turned on low as background noise -yay Baseball game-
As with nuclear migraines my brain tends to end up going into a loop sort of thinking where it just keeps replaying the same snippet of words or song over and over and over and over and over again.
-This time being the song "Creature in the tub"
And I needed something to break that loop.
So having random baseball commentary helped a bit.
But yah.
I ended up laid up on the couch for the rest of the evening.
And only began feeling better just after 11.
*exhales*
I'm glad it's faded enough that I probably won't wake up with the migraine still there tomorrow.
But we'll see how that goes.
Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Tuesday, October 29, 2019
Teeth Teeth Teeth
*Exhales*
There are some days where I wish that teeth never had issues.
They grow in. Stay perfect and healthy and strong and never break or crack or whatever else that teeth do that causes issues with them.
Or you know...I wish that we had teeth more like sharks.
Where you don't have to worry about them falling out or breaking because a new tooth would just come in after it.
But noooo people have to have only two sets of teeth and the first set doesn't last longer than like 5-10 years it seems like....
Which honestly.
If our teeth only last like maybe a decade at most.
It makes sense why the second set of teeth would end up with problems too within a decade or so...
In any case.
Once again.
I have an issue with my teeth.
Where once again
I was innocently chewing on some candy.
and it was a hard candy sure.
And I was crunching down on them quickly to try and swallow them so I could talk to customers at work.
When I felt and maybe even heard this CRACK.
:S
Luckily it didn't hurt or anything.
But when I went to feel my teeth with my tongue.
It encountered a sharp edge.
Poor tooth 13 had lost one of it's fillings.
One that was placed on the outside of the tooth.
So unfortunately my cheek could feel every rough edge and made it so I didn't really want to talk and antagonize it.
A glance in the mirror showed that yah...I had a big chunk of tooth missing.
But lucky number tooth 13 is in my mouth at such an angle that I couldn't see the full extent of what had happened beyond assuming a filling fell out.
Honestly....
I'm not surprised.
I'd noticed in the past week or so that the surface of that tooth was feeling a bit rougher....
and so I wondered if i may have had a cavity forming there or maybe the filling was breaking apart.
So to realize it was that tooth that had the issue.
Yah.
Not surprised.
Disappointed.
But not surprised.
Thankfully when I called the dentist to see when I could get in.
They happened to have an opening today!
Unfortunately...it was exactly when I was supposed to get off work. XP Boo.
but with how...irritating the edge of the tooth was to my cheek and with how much my tongue was playing with the broken surface....
I bit the bullet (not literally) and asked my work if I could leave early to drive up to the dentist to get my tooth fixed.
Thankfully they were understanding and thankfully we had the coverage so I could slip out and head up to the dentist.
...In a snow storm.
Oh goodie.
In any case.
It was different this time around because I ended up seeing a different dentist as my usual dentist had brought in another dentist because my dentist leaves at like 2pm and not many people can get in to see him without taking the day off of work or something.
So he brought in a second dentist who would stay later in the day which would allow people (like me) to be able to come in later. Yay!
However.
Bad news on my side.
I was right.
I did have a cavity that formed underneath the filling.
So before the dentist could replace the filling...they would need to drill out the cavity.
Only in drilling out the cavity...it kept getting bigger and bigger and bigger....
To the point where the Dentist called a halt.
And took an Xray.
Because they were like "We're getting really close to your root canal and if the infection from the bacteria in the cavity has spread to the canal...you'll need to get a root canal"
Thankfully.
We may be dodging that bullet.
The x-ray shows that the cavity is close to the root but that the dentist should be able to get it all out without having to do a root canal in the process and just do a filling instead.
However.
She couldn't do it today.
Why?
We hadn't scheduled enough time to do so.
And with how close the cavity is to the root canal...
The dentist wants to take more time and more precision tools to get the filling out without hitting the root canal with the blood vessels and nerves inside.
But it's not like you can fill a tooth with a cavity still in it.
So unfortunately.
I once again have to deal with the temporary filling clay like material that will protect the inside of my tooth until I can get back into the Dentist for a longer appointment to get the tooth fully free of cavity.
Unfortunately....the earliest I could be seen is Thursday...of next week. XP BLEH.
So for the next week I'm going to have the 'fun' stress of being careful about what I'm eating and needing to chew only on one side of my mouth so I don't accidentally knock out the temproary clay stuff.
Oh. The. Joy. XP
We'll see how well I do with this week because of it.
But *fingers crossed* that we avoid the root canal and I can just get a nice filling instead.
Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
There are some days where I wish that teeth never had issues.
They grow in. Stay perfect and healthy and strong and never break or crack or whatever else that teeth do that causes issues with them.
Or you know...I wish that we had teeth more like sharks.
Where you don't have to worry about them falling out or breaking because a new tooth would just come in after it.
But noooo people have to have only two sets of teeth and the first set doesn't last longer than like 5-10 years it seems like....
Which honestly.
If our teeth only last like maybe a decade at most.
It makes sense why the second set of teeth would end up with problems too within a decade or so...
In any case.
Once again.
I have an issue with my teeth.
Where once again
I was innocently chewing on some candy.
and it was a hard candy sure.
And I was crunching down on them quickly to try and swallow them so I could talk to customers at work.
When I felt and maybe even heard this CRACK.
:S
Luckily it didn't hurt or anything.
But when I went to feel my teeth with my tongue.
It encountered a sharp edge.
Poor tooth 13 had lost one of it's fillings.
One that was placed on the outside of the tooth.
So unfortunately my cheek could feel every rough edge and made it so I didn't really want to talk and antagonize it.
A glance in the mirror showed that yah...I had a big chunk of tooth missing.
But lucky number tooth 13 is in my mouth at such an angle that I couldn't see the full extent of what had happened beyond assuming a filling fell out.
Honestly....
I'm not surprised.
I'd noticed in the past week or so that the surface of that tooth was feeling a bit rougher....
and so I wondered if i may have had a cavity forming there or maybe the filling was breaking apart.
So to realize it was that tooth that had the issue.
Yah.
Not surprised.
Disappointed.
But not surprised.
Thankfully when I called the dentist to see when I could get in.
They happened to have an opening today!
Unfortunately...it was exactly when I was supposed to get off work. XP Boo.
but with how...irritating the edge of the tooth was to my cheek and with how much my tongue was playing with the broken surface....
I bit the bullet (not literally) and asked my work if I could leave early to drive up to the dentist to get my tooth fixed.
Thankfully they were understanding and thankfully we had the coverage so I could slip out and head up to the dentist.
...In a snow storm.
Oh goodie.
In any case.
It was different this time around because I ended up seeing a different dentist as my usual dentist had brought in another dentist because my dentist leaves at like 2pm and not many people can get in to see him without taking the day off of work or something.
So he brought in a second dentist who would stay later in the day which would allow people (like me) to be able to come in later. Yay!
However.
Bad news on my side.
I was right.
I did have a cavity that formed underneath the filling.
So before the dentist could replace the filling...they would need to drill out the cavity.
Only in drilling out the cavity...it kept getting bigger and bigger and bigger....
To the point where the Dentist called a halt.
And took an Xray.
Because they were like "We're getting really close to your root canal and if the infection from the bacteria in the cavity has spread to the canal...you'll need to get a root canal"
Thankfully.
We may be dodging that bullet.
The x-ray shows that the cavity is close to the root but that the dentist should be able to get it all out without having to do a root canal in the process and just do a filling instead.
However.
She couldn't do it today.
Why?
We hadn't scheduled enough time to do so.
And with how close the cavity is to the root canal...
The dentist wants to take more time and more precision tools to get the filling out without hitting the root canal with the blood vessels and nerves inside.
But it's not like you can fill a tooth with a cavity still in it.
So unfortunately.
I once again have to deal with the temporary filling clay like material that will protect the inside of my tooth until I can get back into the Dentist for a longer appointment to get the tooth fully free of cavity.
Unfortunately....the earliest I could be seen is Thursday...of next week. XP BLEH.
So for the next week I'm going to have the 'fun' stress of being careful about what I'm eating and needing to chew only on one side of my mouth so I don't accidentally knock out the temproary clay stuff.
Oh. The. Joy. XP
We'll see how well I do with this week because of it.
But *fingers crossed* that we avoid the root canal and I can just get a nice filling instead.
Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Monday, October 28, 2019
Deep Clean
I ended up doing something a little different at work today.
As...idk at the beginning of the month? We were given the task to deep clean our Iso room and our New Arrivals room.
Deep cleaning meaning take everything out and like cleaning it with bleach.
Which is crazy because like...I can't remember ever cleaning a room with bleach.
But that's what the head honchos wanted us to do.
Deep clean it all.
The problem?
We haven't had time to do so.
Why?
Because for the past forever we've only had like...one opener and like one closer.
We've been very bare bones it feels like.
Mostly because we haven't been given the hours to be able to have more of my coworkers in the store at a time.
Which makes it difficult to deep clean anything because like it's probably a two hour job at least.
And when it can take my entire shift to just open up the department....
There's not really any time available to do a deeper clean like corporate wanted us to do because I can't try and deep clean a room and be present on the floor at the same time.
I would be doing a lot of walking back and forth between the front of the store and the back of the store.
So the solution?
We haven't done anything.
Until today.
Because with the holiday season starting up.
We've been given more hours.
And so the managers scheduled more people to work today.
But it was a bit more than bleaching the room that the manager planned.
No he wanted us to REPAINT it too.
Which meant taking everything off the walls. washing the walls -with bleach- and filling any holes in the walls and such before repainting them.
So once my other coworkers showed up for their shifts.
That's what we did.
One coworker watched the floor.
While me and another coworker pulled everything out of our sick room. Washed the walls with bleach, patched the holes with putty, taped the areas we didn't want paint to get on, and then worked on painting.
Spent a good three hours at that....and ended up leaving my coworker to finish the job on their own because my shift ended.
But hopefully, when I come in tomorrow morning, everything will be done and we'll be able to put everything back into the sick room.
And then move onto our New Arrivals room and repeat the process.
Should be fun lol.
Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
As...idk at the beginning of the month? We were given the task to deep clean our Iso room and our New Arrivals room.
Deep cleaning meaning take everything out and like cleaning it with bleach.
Which is crazy because like...I can't remember ever cleaning a room with bleach.
But that's what the head honchos wanted us to do.
Deep clean it all.
The problem?
We haven't had time to do so.
Why?
Because for the past forever we've only had like...one opener and like one closer.
We've been very bare bones it feels like.
Mostly because we haven't been given the hours to be able to have more of my coworkers in the store at a time.
Which makes it difficult to deep clean anything because like it's probably a two hour job at least.
And when it can take my entire shift to just open up the department....
There's not really any time available to do a deeper clean like corporate wanted us to do because I can't try and deep clean a room and be present on the floor at the same time.
I would be doing a lot of walking back and forth between the front of the store and the back of the store.
So the solution?
We haven't done anything.
Until today.
Because with the holiday season starting up.
We've been given more hours.
And so the managers scheduled more people to work today.
But it was a bit more than bleaching the room that the manager planned.
No he wanted us to REPAINT it too.
Which meant taking everything off the walls. washing the walls -with bleach- and filling any holes in the walls and such before repainting them.
So once my other coworkers showed up for their shifts.
That's what we did.
One coworker watched the floor.
While me and another coworker pulled everything out of our sick room. Washed the walls with bleach, patched the holes with putty, taped the areas we didn't want paint to get on, and then worked on painting.
Spent a good three hours at that....and ended up leaving my coworker to finish the job on their own because my shift ended.
But hopefully, when I come in tomorrow morning, everything will be done and we'll be able to put everything back into the sick room.
And then move onto our New Arrivals room and repeat the process.
Should be fun lol.
Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Sunday, October 27, 2019
Noise Noise Noise
*Exhales*
Today has been...a hard day for me.
Mostly in that I've just been....extremely irritated.
And most of that irritation is directed to the Fourth Roomie.
Because it seems like no matter what we do...she always finds a way to cast a negative shadow over things.
Honestly, I have been ready for her to move out since like three months into her living here.
Because she is soooo particular about things.
And it totally unwilling to bend her whims to better accommodate us.
It's basically 'Her way or her way."
And if She has an issue with something then WE have to fix it.
But if WE have an issue with something then WE still have to fix it.
She works to avoid having the blame placed on herself and tries to stick it to anyone else.
The major sticking point between her and the rest of us roomies has often been the cleanliness of the kitchen.
Though we have managed to work that one out a bit more.
She still has her quirks like needing the sink to be absolutely clean while she's cooking...even though she's cooking....idk.
Or my main annoyance with her is that she'll take dishes out of the dishwasher that we've stuck in because they 'don't fit' but then won't place any of the dishes she took out of the dishwasher BACK INTO the dishwasher once it's clear again.
*exhales*
So yah.
I have my moments where I really just wish she would move out. It kinda ebbs and flows. Some days I'm fine. Other days I can't stand to be around her at all.
I'm in one of those "can't stand her" phases right now.
And the current irritation was sparked because of last night.
She's known for over a month that we were holding a Halloween party last night.
Which parties are known to go late.
We didn't have everyone gone until like 1 am.
Which in all reality shouldn't have been an issue to this roommate.
Why?
Because she is often staying up until one or two in the morning throughout the week even though she has school/work in the morning.
So me and my roomies honestly didn't think there would be any issues if the party went late.
Personally I was thinking it would last until eleven or midnight.
So we were pretty much on par with expectations.
But for whatever reason.
LAST NIGHT.
What did fourth roomie decide she wanted to do?
Go. To. Bed. Early.
Early being like 1130 or so?
Which when she stays up until 1am or 2am is definitely considered early for her.
Especially on a weekend!
Like today is Sunday.
Church didn't start until nearly noon.
She could have slept in easily after staying up late like she normally does and still have gotten plenty of sleep.
But nooooooo
For whatever reason she decided to go to bed early.
And complained that we were 'being too loud'
Like.
*frustrated noises*
WHY
It's not like we have parties every weekend.
No this is like a once a year sort of party with tons of people.
But it seems like EVERY TIME
we have guests over,
Even if it's smaller groups of two-five people instead of the 12 or so we had last night.
She always takes issue with how noisy we are those nights as those nights just happen to be the nights she wants to go to bed early.
Just like.
Gah.
>.<
Why?!
It's like she purposely enjoys causing tension in the house. Enjoys annoying us. Enjoys playing the suffering martyr. XP
I don't like it.
And I am looking forward to when I don't have to live with her any longer.
As I don't like the drama she causes when she refuses to compromise when there are issues brought up. XP
Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Today has been...a hard day for me.
Mostly in that I've just been....extremely irritated.
And most of that irritation is directed to the Fourth Roomie.
Because it seems like no matter what we do...she always finds a way to cast a negative shadow over things.
Honestly, I have been ready for her to move out since like three months into her living here.
Because she is soooo particular about things.
And it totally unwilling to bend her whims to better accommodate us.
It's basically 'Her way or her way."
And if She has an issue with something then WE have to fix it.
But if WE have an issue with something then WE still have to fix it.
She works to avoid having the blame placed on herself and tries to stick it to anyone else.
The major sticking point between her and the rest of us roomies has often been the cleanliness of the kitchen.
Though we have managed to work that one out a bit more.
She still has her quirks like needing the sink to be absolutely clean while she's cooking...even though she's cooking....idk.
Or my main annoyance with her is that she'll take dishes out of the dishwasher that we've stuck in because they 'don't fit' but then won't place any of the dishes she took out of the dishwasher BACK INTO the dishwasher once it's clear again.
*exhales*
So yah.
I have my moments where I really just wish she would move out. It kinda ebbs and flows. Some days I'm fine. Other days I can't stand to be around her at all.
I'm in one of those "can't stand her" phases right now.
And the current irritation was sparked because of last night.
She's known for over a month that we were holding a Halloween party last night.
Which parties are known to go late.
We didn't have everyone gone until like 1 am.
Which in all reality shouldn't have been an issue to this roommate.
Why?
Because she is often staying up until one or two in the morning throughout the week even though she has school/work in the morning.
So me and my roomies honestly didn't think there would be any issues if the party went late.
Personally I was thinking it would last until eleven or midnight.
So we were pretty much on par with expectations.
But for whatever reason.
LAST NIGHT.
What did fourth roomie decide she wanted to do?
Go. To. Bed. Early.
Early being like 1130 or so?
Which when she stays up until 1am or 2am is definitely considered early for her.
Especially on a weekend!
Like today is Sunday.
Church didn't start until nearly noon.
She could have slept in easily after staying up late like she normally does and still have gotten plenty of sleep.
But nooooooo
For whatever reason she decided to go to bed early.
And complained that we were 'being too loud'
Like.
*frustrated noises*
WHY
It's not like we have parties every weekend.
No this is like a once a year sort of party with tons of people.
But it seems like EVERY TIME
we have guests over,
Even if it's smaller groups of two-five people instead of the 12 or so we had last night.
She always takes issue with how noisy we are those nights as those nights just happen to be the nights she wants to go to bed early.
Just like.
Gah.
>.<
Why?!
It's like she purposely enjoys causing tension in the house. Enjoys annoying us. Enjoys playing the suffering martyr. XP
I don't like it.
And I am looking forward to when I don't have to live with her any longer.
As I don't like the drama she causes when she refuses to compromise when there are issues brought up. XP
Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Saturday, October 26, 2019
Parties
Parties are always hit and miss for me.
Mostly because I don't often have much of a social battery.
And I don't always like being in loud places filled with people.
Especially because my voice is rather soft and quiet.
Most often I tend to like the parties where I actually know most of the people coming.
The ones where I may only know one or two people? Those are more stressful for me so I tend to avoid them.
But tonight we had a party at the house.
Where my roommate invited all her friends and us roomies were also asked to invite our friends to.
But since my friends are basically my roommates friends.
I didn't really have anyone to invite. ^^;;
But that did mean that I knew practically everyone who came.
So that made it easier to...well socialize.
Mostly because it gave me the opportunity to catch up with friends that I haven't seen for a while.
And that IS the aspect of parties that I do like.
Going around and catching up with people.
As I love learning what everyone has been up to. In that aspect I'm pretty social. ^^;;
So tonight, overall. Went well.
I do admit that I did people out when we started playing games though.
Because while I do enjoy games, I don't like the games that involve...discussions.
Where everyone has to decide things or talk through things in order to go to the next step of the game.
And we played two of them in a row.
And since nearly everyone there is like a DND person...they complicated the scenarios far more than necessary lol.
So yah, after the games I had to step away for a little bit just to recharge because I'd done a full work shift that morning and to do 8 hours of peopling plus another 5 hours of party socializing....is exhausting.
Overall though.
I had a good time and I'm glad that my roomie was willing to host it and get everyone together. :D
Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Mostly because I don't often have much of a social battery.
And I don't always like being in loud places filled with people.
Especially because my voice is rather soft and quiet.
Most often I tend to like the parties where I actually know most of the people coming.
The ones where I may only know one or two people? Those are more stressful for me so I tend to avoid them.
But tonight we had a party at the house.
Where my roommate invited all her friends and us roomies were also asked to invite our friends to.
But since my friends are basically my roommates friends.
I didn't really have anyone to invite. ^^;;
But that did mean that I knew practically everyone who came.
So that made it easier to...well socialize.
Mostly because it gave me the opportunity to catch up with friends that I haven't seen for a while.
And that IS the aspect of parties that I do like.
Going around and catching up with people.
As I love learning what everyone has been up to. In that aspect I'm pretty social. ^^;;
So tonight, overall. Went well.
I do admit that I did people out when we started playing games though.
Because while I do enjoy games, I don't like the games that involve...discussions.
Where everyone has to decide things or talk through things in order to go to the next step of the game.
And we played two of them in a row.
And since nearly everyone there is like a DND person...they complicated the scenarios far more than necessary lol.
So yah, after the games I had to step away for a little bit just to recharge because I'd done a full work shift that morning and to do 8 hours of peopling plus another 5 hours of party socializing....is exhausting.
Overall though.
I had a good time and I'm glad that my roomie was willing to host it and get everyone together. :D
Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Friday, October 25, 2019
My Cookie Now
So last Saturday I ended up going to Crumbl after work for the sole reason of buying myself a Nutella and Sea Salt Sugar cookie because those things are GOOD.
And it was my last day to do so after putting it off for like...the entire week.
As Crumbl is a unique cookie shop.
In that they have six different flavors of cookies.
Two of them are standard. You can always get A Pink Frosted Sugar Cookie or A Chocolate Chip Cookie.
But the other four?
They switch out every. single. week.
And sometimes they don't come back for months and months and months.
So one week you can get like Birthday Cake, Rocky Road, Red Velvet & Triple Chocolate Chunk.
And then the next week it's "Oreo, Cinnamon Roll, Pumpkin Spice & Lemon cookies.
It's pretty cool, honestly, to see all the different cookie types that they end up offering throughout the year.
But it had been two or three months since I've tasted the deliciousness that is their Nutella cookie.
So I went there and got myself two!
Plus two of another type. A chocolate/caramel combo that looked rather delicious because it was a chocolate cookie with chocolate chunks in it, with chocolate sauce and caramel sauce dribbled on top.
I had mostly plans to share the chocolatey one with one roomie.
And basically have the other three for me.
So I could horde one Nutella one for later.
And eat the chocolate and the other Nutella cookies myself.
However.
A different roomie came home around the time I was offering the cookies to the first roomie.
So I offered one to her as well.
To which she was like "I'll try the nutella one! But I'm kind a full right now, I'll eat it later."
Something like that.
And I was like "Okay cool!"
And proceeded to eat my one nutella and my one chocolate one over the course of a few days because those cookies are rich and sweet and gah. I can't eat too much at once lol.
However.
The other Nutella remained untouched.
Just sitting there.
Days passed.
And it hadn't been touched.
Until today.
When I decided that it's been basically a week.
And if the roomie hadn't eaten it by now.
Then either a) she's forgotten about it or b) she's forgotten about it.
And since it's been a week, I hardly doubted she'd want to eat a week old cookie.
But me.
I know the deliciousness that is the nutella cookie.
And I didn't want this treat that I had originally planned to have for myself....basically go to waste.
So this morning, after the roomies left for the day.
I snagged the cookie.
And ate it.
NOM NOM NOM.
I mean. It was mine to offer in the first place, which means I can revoke that offer at any time right?
Right.
No cookie should be left uneaten!
Ah.
So tasty.
Wish I had another one...but I probably won't see the precious cookie again until next year. Y_Y :( Sad day.
Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
And it was my last day to do so after putting it off for like...the entire week.
As Crumbl is a unique cookie shop.
In that they have six different flavors of cookies.
Two of them are standard. You can always get A Pink Frosted Sugar Cookie or A Chocolate Chip Cookie.
But the other four?
They switch out every. single. week.
And sometimes they don't come back for months and months and months.
So one week you can get like Birthday Cake, Rocky Road, Red Velvet & Triple Chocolate Chunk.
And then the next week it's "Oreo, Cinnamon Roll, Pumpkin Spice & Lemon cookies.
It's pretty cool, honestly, to see all the different cookie types that they end up offering throughout the year.
But it had been two or three months since I've tasted the deliciousness that is their Nutella cookie.
So I went there and got myself two!
Plus two of another type. A chocolate/caramel combo that looked rather delicious because it was a chocolate cookie with chocolate chunks in it, with chocolate sauce and caramel sauce dribbled on top.
I had mostly plans to share the chocolatey one with one roomie.
And basically have the other three for me.
So I could horde one Nutella one for later.
And eat the chocolate and the other Nutella cookies myself.
However.
A different roomie came home around the time I was offering the cookies to the first roomie.
So I offered one to her as well.
To which she was like "I'll try the nutella one! But I'm kind a full right now, I'll eat it later."
Something like that.
And I was like "Okay cool!"
And proceeded to eat my one nutella and my one chocolate one over the course of a few days because those cookies are rich and sweet and gah. I can't eat too much at once lol.
However.
The other Nutella remained untouched.
Just sitting there.
Days passed.
And it hadn't been touched.
Until today.
When I decided that it's been basically a week.
And if the roomie hadn't eaten it by now.
Then either a) she's forgotten about it or b) she's forgotten about it.
And since it's been a week, I hardly doubted she'd want to eat a week old cookie.
But me.
I know the deliciousness that is the nutella cookie.
And I didn't want this treat that I had originally planned to have for myself....basically go to waste.
So this morning, after the roomies left for the day.
I snagged the cookie.
And ate it.
NOM NOM NOM.
I mean. It was mine to offer in the first place, which means I can revoke that offer at any time right?
Right.
No cookie should be left uneaten!
Ah.
So tasty.
Wish I had another one...but I probably won't see the precious cookie again until next year. Y_Y :( Sad day.
Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Thursday, October 24, 2019
All You Can Eat
All you can eat places are an interesting concept.
Like it's really cool that you can pay a flat fee and just eat all the food you want.
However...
When it comes to people like me....who have really small stomachs and don't eat that much.
I feel really bad going to these places.
Especially if someone else is paying for me.
Because I don't eat much.
And prices for these all you can eat places have just gone up over the years.
To the point where I just....don't usually go to them.
However,
Tonight my friend wanted to celebrate at one of these all you can eat places.
Tucanos.
Which has
All.
The.
Meat.
And like a $30 per plate price tag. :S Yikes.
Like I get it.
Meat is expensive.
And this place serves all the meat you could ever want to eat.
Servers just come up to you every so often and are like "You want chicken parmesan?" "You want pork loin?" "You want bbq chicken?" "you want ribs?" "You teriyaki steak?"
Seriously.
If you want to try ALL the meat.
Great place to go lol.
And if you don't they have a nice salad bar option with salads, potatos, pastas, soups, etc. '
So you have ALL THE FOOD.
The slight problem is...
I'm not much of a meat eater?
Like I love my chicken sandwiches and such.
But the red meat?
Not so much.
I don't like the taste of it, so in order to eat red meat it either has to be really seasoned well, or covered in sauce, or like thin enough that I don't have to chew on it endlessly.
So in reality.
Tucanos isn't the best place for me to go eat lol
Because I'm sooo picky at the types of meat.
And again, I feel bad for spending so much money...on very little.
Especially when I know that like $30 could buy me a good sixish meals at a fast food place.
However, I mostly went to support my friend. As it was their birthday.
So I figured I could swallow the cost a bit.
And just go to enjoy myself.
I did make an effort though.
To try different meats and such.
Though I ended up only saying yes to like...half of the ones offered.
Because there are just some that I can't stand.
But the servers were really sweet, especially when I said I prefer red meat well done because well...I don't like seeing the red, and again I don't like the taste of it. :S And so made an extra effort to try and get food to me cooked more well done.
But yah.
It was only my second time going to this place.
And while fun and novel....
Definitely not a place that I feel like....I would just go to on my own instigation.
So we'll see when the next time is.
But yah.
It was fun to try different things. :)
Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Like it's really cool that you can pay a flat fee and just eat all the food you want.
However...
When it comes to people like me....who have really small stomachs and don't eat that much.
I feel really bad going to these places.
Especially if someone else is paying for me.
Because I don't eat much.
And prices for these all you can eat places have just gone up over the years.
To the point where I just....don't usually go to them.
However,
Tonight my friend wanted to celebrate at one of these all you can eat places.
Tucanos.
Which has
All.
The.
Meat.
And like a $30 per plate price tag. :S Yikes.
Like I get it.
Meat is expensive.
And this place serves all the meat you could ever want to eat.
Servers just come up to you every so often and are like "You want chicken parmesan?" "You want pork loin?" "You want bbq chicken?" "you want ribs?" "You teriyaki steak?"
Seriously.
If you want to try ALL the meat.
Great place to go lol.
And if you don't they have a nice salad bar option with salads, potatos, pastas, soups, etc. '
So you have ALL THE FOOD.
The slight problem is...
I'm not much of a meat eater?
Like I love my chicken sandwiches and such.
But the red meat?
Not so much.
I don't like the taste of it, so in order to eat red meat it either has to be really seasoned well, or covered in sauce, or like thin enough that I don't have to chew on it endlessly.
So in reality.
Tucanos isn't the best place for me to go eat lol
Because I'm sooo picky at the types of meat.
And again, I feel bad for spending so much money...on very little.
Especially when I know that like $30 could buy me a good sixish meals at a fast food place.
However, I mostly went to support my friend. As it was their birthday.
So I figured I could swallow the cost a bit.
And just go to enjoy myself.
I did make an effort though.
To try different meats and such.
Though I ended up only saying yes to like...half of the ones offered.
Because there are just some that I can't stand.
But the servers were really sweet, especially when I said I prefer red meat well done because well...I don't like seeing the red, and again I don't like the taste of it. :S And so made an extra effort to try and get food to me cooked more well done.
But yah.
It was only my second time going to this place.
And while fun and novel....
Definitely not a place that I feel like....I would just go to on my own instigation.
So we'll see when the next time is.
But yah.
It was fun to try different things. :)
Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Wednesday, October 23, 2019
Busy Morning
So it was just me and the manager this morning at work.
Like literally.
When the store opened.
It was just me and the manager.
No cashier had been scheduled for another hour.
Which meant that the manager needed to be on the register until our cashier showed up.
Because that would allow me to go ahead and finish completing the opening tasks.
And like.
We usually get in a handful of morning people.
But usually more start coming in closer to lunch time.
You know when people go on their lunch breaks.
But occasionally....
We get in those morning rushes.
Where everyone and their mom decides that they need to be at the Petstore first thing in the morning.
And today...was one of those days.
Like.
It hasn't been the crazy busy that I've experienced before.
But for that first hour we were open I was just going from customer to customer to customer to customer and didn't have any time at all to do any of my opening tasks for that hour because the phones were also ringing off the hook and like every other customer had complicated questions that couldn't be answered with a simple 'oh it's on aisle four' no it was like ten to fifteen minute interactions.
*exhales*
I was really excited to have our cashier come in so that there would be two people on the floor and not just me running around since the manager couldn't really leave the register area because they were checking out customers.
So yah.
Crazy morning.
So much fun.
Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Like literally.
When the store opened.
It was just me and the manager.
No cashier had been scheduled for another hour.
Which meant that the manager needed to be on the register until our cashier showed up.
Because that would allow me to go ahead and finish completing the opening tasks.
And like.
We usually get in a handful of morning people.
But usually more start coming in closer to lunch time.
You know when people go on their lunch breaks.
But occasionally....
We get in those morning rushes.
Where everyone and their mom decides that they need to be at the Petstore first thing in the morning.
And today...was one of those days.
Like.
It hasn't been the crazy busy that I've experienced before.
But for that first hour we were open I was just going from customer to customer to customer to customer and didn't have any time at all to do any of my opening tasks for that hour because the phones were also ringing off the hook and like every other customer had complicated questions that couldn't be answered with a simple 'oh it's on aisle four' no it was like ten to fifteen minute interactions.
*exhales*
I was really excited to have our cashier come in so that there would be two people on the floor and not just me running around since the manager couldn't really leave the register area because they were checking out customers.
So yah.
Crazy morning.
So much fun.
Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Tuesday, October 22, 2019
Stepping Down
So I was told today by my head manager that the manager over me is going to be stepping down.
Which I'm not that surprised over because the Saturday before this recent one, my manager said over the radio that they were going to 'accept the offer' my head manager had apparently offered them.
Which if head manager is offering something to another manager...
That usually means that there's potentially a job position involved somewhere.
Usually it's stepping up though.
Not stepping down.
Why is my manager stepping down?
I think it's mostly stress related.
Not quite with the job itself.
But more stress in various issues in their personal life.
And they're still going to be a manager.
Just a different one that has less responsibility in the store and isn't involved with tasks in my department.
Which I think is good for them.
Because this manager...I think is more of a follower than a leader.
Which meant that I ended up taking a lot of the responsibility for the department....
Though honestly I've basically been taking full ownership of the department for like at least five years now because most of the managers never last longer than 3-6 months in this position.
I honestly don't know how long my manager lasted.
Because they've been in the store for multiple years.
But I don't recall when they switched to being my manager.
Possibly it's been at least 6 months, maybe almost a year....
I honestly don't know.
But like I said.
I'm not surprised that they stepped down.
Because no one lasts long in it.
It basically has the highest turnover rate.
In any case.
I wish I'd been told a bit earlier.
As it's kinda sudden to be told 'oh hey your manager won't be your manager tomorrow.'
*exhales*
Like...more of a heads up would be nice.
Like I don't know what people's obsession over not talking about job changes is.
But I really don't like being blindsided like this.
However,
The Head Manager did confide in me that they have done multiple interviews with many people over the past couple of weeks.
But the Head Manager has been keeping in mind how the people would potentially work with the others managers in the store and how they would work with me.
Which is interesting because like...I'm pretty easy going. So I can and have worked with a variety of different people....
In any case.
One of the people that the Head Manager is considering is the newest manager in our store.
So my manager and this manager would basically be switching positions of Head Manager chooses to promote them to being head over my department.
The bad news is....this is the manager that gets on my nerves the most.
Because they can be just as paranoid about the health of the animals in the store as my paranoid coworker was.
Making a big deal out of things that I wouldn't see as an issue.
There's other aspects to their personality that also gets under my skin.
-Though truthfully if I work with any of my coworkers, including managers too many days in a row they get on my nerves anyways.
But yah.
Apparently I wasn't hiding the fact this manager and I had a bit of a bumpy start.
Because Head Manager was aware that we didn't quite...mesh well.
*exhales*
So on the one hand I'm not looking forward to this manager potentially becoming the manager over me because they do tend to just...get on my nerves quickly.
On the other hand.
This manager is also more likely to take action. So I can see them stepping up and taking charge of the department which would allow me to step back a bit from basically doing the manager's job.
*exhales*
Yah....
We'll see how it goes.
The Head Manager is going to be making a decision either today or tomorrow.
So like...I'll know soon enough.
I'm guessing it will be this manager that gets the position as it seems like they're the one who has the best qualifications/meshing ability.
Honestly though.
I can work with a variety of people.
I'm easy going.
I can figure out how to mesh with people so that things run smoothly.
Besides......
It's not like the managers over me ever stick around for long anyways.
Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Which I'm not that surprised over because the Saturday before this recent one, my manager said over the radio that they were going to 'accept the offer' my head manager had apparently offered them.
Which if head manager is offering something to another manager...
That usually means that there's potentially a job position involved somewhere.
Usually it's stepping up though.
Not stepping down.
Why is my manager stepping down?
I think it's mostly stress related.
Not quite with the job itself.
But more stress in various issues in their personal life.
And they're still going to be a manager.
Just a different one that has less responsibility in the store and isn't involved with tasks in my department.
Which I think is good for them.
Because this manager...I think is more of a follower than a leader.
Which meant that I ended up taking a lot of the responsibility for the department....
Though honestly I've basically been taking full ownership of the department for like at least five years now because most of the managers never last longer than 3-6 months in this position.
I honestly don't know how long my manager lasted.
Because they've been in the store for multiple years.
But I don't recall when they switched to being my manager.
Possibly it's been at least 6 months, maybe almost a year....
I honestly don't know.
But like I said.
I'm not surprised that they stepped down.
Because no one lasts long in it.
It basically has the highest turnover rate.
In any case.
I wish I'd been told a bit earlier.
As it's kinda sudden to be told 'oh hey your manager won't be your manager tomorrow.'
*exhales*
Like...more of a heads up would be nice.
Like I don't know what people's obsession over not talking about job changes is.
But I really don't like being blindsided like this.
However,
The Head Manager did confide in me that they have done multiple interviews with many people over the past couple of weeks.
But the Head Manager has been keeping in mind how the people would potentially work with the others managers in the store and how they would work with me.
Which is interesting because like...I'm pretty easy going. So I can and have worked with a variety of different people....
In any case.
One of the people that the Head Manager is considering is the newest manager in our store.
So my manager and this manager would basically be switching positions of Head Manager chooses to promote them to being head over my department.
The bad news is....this is the manager that gets on my nerves the most.
Because they can be just as paranoid about the health of the animals in the store as my paranoid coworker was.
Making a big deal out of things that I wouldn't see as an issue.
There's other aspects to their personality that also gets under my skin.
-Though truthfully if I work with any of my coworkers, including managers too many days in a row they get on my nerves anyways.
But yah.
Apparently I wasn't hiding the fact this manager and I had a bit of a bumpy start.
Because Head Manager was aware that we didn't quite...mesh well.
*exhales*
So on the one hand I'm not looking forward to this manager potentially becoming the manager over me because they do tend to just...get on my nerves quickly.
On the other hand.
This manager is also more likely to take action. So I can see them stepping up and taking charge of the department which would allow me to step back a bit from basically doing the manager's job.
*exhales*
Yah....
We'll see how it goes.
The Head Manager is going to be making a decision either today or tomorrow.
So like...I'll know soon enough.
I'm guessing it will be this manager that gets the position as it seems like they're the one who has the best qualifications/meshing ability.
Honestly though.
I can work with a variety of people.
I'm easy going.
I can figure out how to mesh with people so that things run smoothly.
Besides......
It's not like the managers over me ever stick around for long anyways.
Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Monday, October 21, 2019
Family Time
I do say.
I've missed the family gatherings.
My siblings, their significant others, and I managed to meet up for dinner tonight!
Huzzah!
We ended up going to Texas Roadhouse because it's a more...neutral ground?
As I'm all too aware that there are certain restaurants that we went to as a whole family that are difficult for my siblings to go to because they're reminded of Mom and such because we would go there all the time with her present.
But Texas Roadhouse...has more of a mixed environment as I've often gone there with friends or just my siblings and such.
I do have to say that if we go out to a sit down dinner.....we probably need to pick a place that's slightly more quiet lol as it's difficult to hear my voice.
But still.
It was a good bonding experience and we all agreed that this was a good idea.
PLUS!!
We got to go over and see my Brother's new house!
WAHHHH!!!
It's so cool!!!
Lol though I can see why my brother was like "I'm turning into Dad!"
Because the house has a lot of similarities to Daddoo's place.
Though enough differences that I probably wouldn't have made the connection if he hadn't pointed it out.
But I'm pretty sure houses from that decade were all pretty much built around the same basic plan.
The only differences are basically on what subsequent owners decided to change/cutout/renovate etc.
Still.
It's an awesome looking house with it's own unique aspects like a moving bookcase, and random things left behind by the last owners, and like no windows in the basement. *shakes head*
But I'm proud and happy that he and his wife are taking this step forward in their lives.
And I hope that they can make the house into their dream home once they get all settled in. ^^;;
Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
I've missed the family gatherings.
My siblings, their significant others, and I managed to meet up for dinner tonight!
Huzzah!
We ended up going to Texas Roadhouse because it's a more...neutral ground?
As I'm all too aware that there are certain restaurants that we went to as a whole family that are difficult for my siblings to go to because they're reminded of Mom and such because we would go there all the time with her present.
But Texas Roadhouse...has more of a mixed environment as I've often gone there with friends or just my siblings and such.
I do have to say that if we go out to a sit down dinner.....we probably need to pick a place that's slightly more quiet lol as it's difficult to hear my voice.
But still.
It was a good bonding experience and we all agreed that this was a good idea.
PLUS!!
We got to go over and see my Brother's new house!
WAHHHH!!!
It's so cool!!!
Lol though I can see why my brother was like "I'm turning into Dad!"
Because the house has a lot of similarities to Daddoo's place.
Though enough differences that I probably wouldn't have made the connection if he hadn't pointed it out.
But I'm pretty sure houses from that decade were all pretty much built around the same basic plan.
The only differences are basically on what subsequent owners decided to change/cutout/renovate etc.
Still.
It's an awesome looking house with it's own unique aspects like a moving bookcase, and random things left behind by the last owners, and like no windows in the basement. *shakes head*
But I'm proud and happy that he and his wife are taking this step forward in their lives.
And I hope that they can make the house into their dream home once they get all settled in. ^^;;
Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Sunday, October 20, 2019
Focus and Inspiration
So I made more of an effort today to listen in church.
Because I admit it.
My mind isn't at church when I'm at church.
I'm more distracted with my phone or writing down story ideas or thinking about plot elements to actually pay attention to what is being sad.
Which I recognize isn't the best way to like being at church if I'm not 'learning' anything for it.
So today I tried to make more of a concentrated effort to pay attention.
Which worked rather well for me the first hour as I was having fun posting quotes from the talk online.
-So yes I was on my phone, and I was playing games on it, but I was also listening this time around and trying to get tidbits of inspiration from the talks.
So I left the first meeting feeling rather proud of myself because I did that and I paid attention!!!
.....
But it's still a work in progress.
As I ended up picking a Sunday School class where the teacher's voice.....bugged me.
So I spent most of that hour fully zoning out because I just...couldn't stand to listen to them talk.
So note to self.
Pick a different class next time.
But hopefully I can start getting back more into participating in the lessons and learning and gaining inspiration rather than just being a body sitting there.
We'll see.
Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Because I admit it.
My mind isn't at church when I'm at church.
I'm more distracted with my phone or writing down story ideas or thinking about plot elements to actually pay attention to what is being sad.
Which I recognize isn't the best way to like being at church if I'm not 'learning' anything for it.
So today I tried to make more of a concentrated effort to pay attention.
Which worked rather well for me the first hour as I was having fun posting quotes from the talk online.
-So yes I was on my phone, and I was playing games on it, but I was also listening this time around and trying to get tidbits of inspiration from the talks.
So I left the first meeting feeling rather proud of myself because I did that and I paid attention!!!
.....
But it's still a work in progress.
As I ended up picking a Sunday School class where the teacher's voice.....bugged me.
So I spent most of that hour fully zoning out because I just...couldn't stand to listen to them talk.
So note to self.
Pick a different class next time.
But hopefully I can start getting back more into participating in the lessons and learning and gaining inspiration rather than just being a body sitting there.
We'll see.
Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Saturday, October 19, 2019
Just to Chat
So I was in a rather low spot today because I woke up from a dream that just had me in a....bad state of mind.
It was one of those dreams where you just....wake up angry at people in real life because of something their dream self did.
Which like...their real self didn't do the stuff the dream self did so it's like...misplaced anger?
Yah.
Just makes it difficult to work through that particular problem.
But does clarify that I may be having a bit more emotional issues with things than previous thought.
In any case.
I was just missing Kikay really.
As we don't talk at like...all since she moved out.
Which occasionally is jarring, especially for moments like this.
Because if I needed to vent or something I could just go into her room and like...talk to her. Hang out on her bed and talk about everything and nothing.
And honestly. I think I'm just missing my family.
As the last time I saw them was like...a month ago?
Which is kinda weird to think that that's a long time.
But we went from having family dinner from every single sunday to once a month and we didn't do one this month because I had to work our usual Sunday and Daddoo vanished on his cruise after that.
So I haven't seen them really since like early September?
In any case.
I ended up texting Kikay to just...vent.
As I needed someone to chat with.
And surprisingly she responded rather quickly.
(As she's not usually quick to respond back to my texts)
But it was good to just...vent.
And I mentioned that I would like to get the siblings together since Daddoo is out of town.
And so we're going to see if we can do that on Monday.
Because like....
I just need to be around a different energy for a bit methinks.
Be with my family.
Hopefully we can get it to work out. *fingers crossed*
Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Friday, October 18, 2019
Unfinished Stories
I may have just shot myself in the foot.
Not literally.
Figuratively.
As I've been working on this story concept that I wanted to post chapters of everyday leading up to Halloween.
Only I realized that in order to get all the chapters posted by Halloween....
I would have to start posting chapters....Today.
And I still have like four chapters I need to write in order to finish the story. :S :S :S
Which knowing my past track record with getting things done to a deadline....
I tend to fail those.
Writers block can be vicious.
Yet.
I'm rather confident with this one.
Mostly it's the final chapter that I'm unsure of.
But since the chapters are short, like only a page long, it shouldn't be that difficult to finish the final four chapters.
So long as life doesn't go crazy on me lol.
But yah.
With that knowledge....
I made the choice to start posting the story online.
:S :S :S
Hopefully I can get the final four chapters finished before their posting dates. ^^;; lol
Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Not literally.
Figuratively.
As I've been working on this story concept that I wanted to post chapters of everyday leading up to Halloween.
Only I realized that in order to get all the chapters posted by Halloween....
I would have to start posting chapters....Today.
And I still have like four chapters I need to write in order to finish the story. :S :S :S
Which knowing my past track record with getting things done to a deadline....
I tend to fail those.
Writers block can be vicious.
Yet.
I'm rather confident with this one.
Mostly it's the final chapter that I'm unsure of.
But since the chapters are short, like only a page long, it shouldn't be that difficult to finish the final four chapters.
So long as life doesn't go crazy on me lol.
But yah.
With that knowledge....
I made the choice to start posting the story online.
:S :S :S
Hopefully I can get the final four chapters finished before their posting dates. ^^;; lol
Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Thursday, October 17, 2019
Work Through the Pain
Other people probably would have called out.
You know.
Upon having their migraine from the day before still present and keeping you from getting real rest during the night.
It probably would have been healthier to call out.
I almost called the store asking if it would be okay if I came in a couple of hours late.
Because I was pretty sure that if I could just rest for a couple more hours....my migraine would finally fade away and I wouldn't have to go to work with a pounding in my skull.
But like every time I get a migraine....
I end up going to work anyways.
Mostly because I'm stubborn like that.
Like it's just a migraine. I can work through it.
And this one...wasn't as bad as previous ones had been.
Still.
I wasn't functioning too well when I came in.
But.
I knew that work would have a soda machine.
And with my stomach being queasy due to the aching in my head.
I figured that if I could buy a drink that would settle my stomach.
I would be able to have the headache go away.
As that's been a normal occurrence before. Drink a pepsi. Stomach feels better. Headache goes away.
It wasn't any different today.
Though I bought a Coke instead of a Pepsi because the soda machine had the Coke in the bottle and the pepsi in the can and I figured a bottle would be better in the long run.
In any case.
The soda and some goldfish crackers,
And probably warming up and working out my muscles cleaning things.
Helped to make the headache fade.
....For a while at least.
At least it made me able to function at work.
Which is a good thing since it was just me and the manager that morning.
So if I hadn't shown up...the manager would have had to wait outside until someone else showed up because it's policy not to enter the store by yourself.
So yay for the buddy system.
But yah.
I survived work...until...well around lunchtime.
When the headache came back.
Tried to head it off with some meds and taking a nap with a heatpack on my lunch break.
But it wore away my tolerance for people.
And made the last couple of hours more difficult to bear.
Especially because it got busier and because I was in pain I was moving slower.
And because I was moving slower I was in the middle of trying to do the bedding change.
Only to have people call me every which way every two minutes.
So I got antagonized with that.
Especially because I knew there were at least two other people in the store who could help out the cashier yet it felt like I was the only one coming to the cashier's aid.
Which made it difficult to tolerate helping people because I just wanted to get my own tasks done and I kept getting interrupted and.....
*exhales*
I was glad to head home.
Where I could rest and relax and not have to worry about helping people.
I could just work on getting my head to stop aching.
Which it has now.
For now.
We'll see if it stays gone.
Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
You know.
Upon having their migraine from the day before still present and keeping you from getting real rest during the night.
It probably would have been healthier to call out.
I almost called the store asking if it would be okay if I came in a couple of hours late.
Because I was pretty sure that if I could just rest for a couple more hours....my migraine would finally fade away and I wouldn't have to go to work with a pounding in my skull.
But like every time I get a migraine....
I end up going to work anyways.
Mostly because I'm stubborn like that.
Like it's just a migraine. I can work through it.
And this one...wasn't as bad as previous ones had been.
Still.
I wasn't functioning too well when I came in.
But.
I knew that work would have a soda machine.
And with my stomach being queasy due to the aching in my head.
I figured that if I could buy a drink that would settle my stomach.
I would be able to have the headache go away.
As that's been a normal occurrence before. Drink a pepsi. Stomach feels better. Headache goes away.
It wasn't any different today.
Though I bought a Coke instead of a Pepsi because the soda machine had the Coke in the bottle and the pepsi in the can and I figured a bottle would be better in the long run.
In any case.
The soda and some goldfish crackers,
And probably warming up and working out my muscles cleaning things.
Helped to make the headache fade.
....For a while at least.
At least it made me able to function at work.
Which is a good thing since it was just me and the manager that morning.
So if I hadn't shown up...the manager would have had to wait outside until someone else showed up because it's policy not to enter the store by yourself.
So yay for the buddy system.
But yah.
I survived work...until...well around lunchtime.
When the headache came back.
Tried to head it off with some meds and taking a nap with a heatpack on my lunch break.
But it wore away my tolerance for people.
And made the last couple of hours more difficult to bear.
Especially because it got busier and because I was in pain I was moving slower.
And because I was moving slower I was in the middle of trying to do the bedding change.
Only to have people call me every which way every two minutes.
So I got antagonized with that.
Especially because I knew there were at least two other people in the store who could help out the cashier yet it felt like I was the only one coming to the cashier's aid.
Which made it difficult to tolerate helping people because I just wanted to get my own tasks done and I kept getting interrupted and.....
*exhales*
I was glad to head home.
Where I could rest and relax and not have to worry about helping people.
I could just work on getting my head to stop aching.
Which it has now.
For now.
We'll see if it stays gone.
Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Wednesday, October 16, 2019
A Chat
I heard from Daddoo today.
Which was...a relief really.
As he's been traveling out of cell phone range.
And I have to say...it slightly stresses me out when I can't reach my family.
So to have him text me for a little bit while he had some service.
Was a relief really.
I mean, I shouldn't let it get to me.
But I can't help but worry.
And being able to chat for a tiny bit....did a lot to take some stress from me.
As it does stress me out.
A bit.
Not being able to reach out and talk to him when I want to.
*exhales*
I probably shouldn't let it effect me so.....
And yet it does.
Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Which was...a relief really.
As he's been traveling out of cell phone range.
And I have to say...it slightly stresses me out when I can't reach my family.
So to have him text me for a little bit while he had some service.
Was a relief really.
I mean, I shouldn't let it get to me.
But I can't help but worry.
And being able to chat for a tiny bit....did a lot to take some stress from me.
As it does stress me out.
A bit.
Not being able to reach out and talk to him when I want to.
*exhales*
I probably shouldn't let it effect me so.....
And yet it does.
Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Tuesday, October 15, 2019
Redecorating
So last week when the Regional Manager visited...or maybe it was the week before that? ....No idea. Recently when the RM came by to visit.
They mentioned to my Head Manager that our fish tanks were looking....rather sad.
Mostly because they didn't have a lot of decorations in them and the decorations we do have....are missing the plants they originally came with because those eventually fall out from how much we mess around with them.
In any case.
The Regional Manager wanted us to spruce them up.
And apparently we're having yet ANOTHER visit next week on Tuesday.
And then we're having the Regional Manager's boss come in the second week of November for a visit...*exhales*
Like...I'm so tired of all these visits.
Especially when I'm present for Every. Single. One.
Gah.
One of these days I'll actually be gone on vacation when there's a visit and I'll miss it and it will be sooo nice.
Pretty sure that's not gonna happen as they always visit the week before or the week after my vacations.
Like next month they're coming like the day before I leave. *shakes head*
In any case.
Decorations.
The RM wanted us to decorate the tanks.
So today the HM came up to me and told me that he wanted it to be a priority for us today to redecorate all the tanks.
Which when you have like 70 tanks.... :S
That's a lot of tanks to decorate. :S :S :S
He wanted us to have a rock (the original decoration), another decoration, and then a plant placed in each and every tank and to pull ornaments/plants from our shelves that we had a ton of in order to do that.
So once I got opening done.
I went to work.
Finding the decorations and plants that we had a ton of.
Pulling them off the shelves.
And then figuring out how to get them all into the tanks and make it look nice.
Which was....hard.
Because like.
I'm used to my 125 gallon tank at home and decorating that which means lots of plants and decorations.
Which meant that having just like....three items in a tank....
Made me feel like I wasn't doing the best job my manager wanted me to do.
I suppose that's what happens when you've been staring at the tanks for like three hours straight.
Lol it's hard to think it looks good when you've seen the flaws and issues.
Though everyone else I asked in the store thought that they looked really good when I was done.
So that's....a good sign.
Hopefully HM when he comes back in -as he left before I was finished- likes what I did with the tanks as well. ^^;;
Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
They mentioned to my Head Manager that our fish tanks were looking....rather sad.
Mostly because they didn't have a lot of decorations in them and the decorations we do have....are missing the plants they originally came with because those eventually fall out from how much we mess around with them.
In any case.
The Regional Manager wanted us to spruce them up.
And apparently we're having yet ANOTHER visit next week on Tuesday.
And then we're having the Regional Manager's boss come in the second week of November for a visit...*exhales*
Like...I'm so tired of all these visits.
Especially when I'm present for Every. Single. One.
Gah.
One of these days I'll actually be gone on vacation when there's a visit and I'll miss it and it will be sooo nice.
Pretty sure that's not gonna happen as they always visit the week before or the week after my vacations.
Like next month they're coming like the day before I leave. *shakes head*
In any case.
Decorations.
The RM wanted us to decorate the tanks.
So today the HM came up to me and told me that he wanted it to be a priority for us today to redecorate all the tanks.
Which when you have like 70 tanks.... :S
That's a lot of tanks to decorate. :S :S :S
He wanted us to have a rock (the original decoration), another decoration, and then a plant placed in each and every tank and to pull ornaments/plants from our shelves that we had a ton of in order to do that.
So once I got opening done.
I went to work.
Finding the decorations and plants that we had a ton of.
Pulling them off the shelves.
And then figuring out how to get them all into the tanks and make it look nice.
Which was....hard.
Because like.
I'm used to my 125 gallon tank at home and decorating that which means lots of plants and decorations.
Which meant that having just like....three items in a tank....
Made me feel like I wasn't doing the best job my manager wanted me to do.
I suppose that's what happens when you've been staring at the tanks for like three hours straight.
Lol it's hard to think it looks good when you've seen the flaws and issues.
Though everyone else I asked in the store thought that they looked really good when I was done.
So that's....a good sign.
Hopefully HM when he comes back in -as he left before I was finished- likes what I did with the tanks as well. ^^;;
Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Monday, October 14, 2019
A Season of Sunsets
It's kinda been a month of reflection for me.
Mostly because I'm all too keenly aware that November...marks the one year versary of Mother Dearest's passing.
So like... October kinda has this symbolicness of 'the moment before everything changed.'
As last year it was so simple. So simple.
The main thing I remember about last October is that I randomly decided, after getting an Instagram account, was to spend October posting a picture of the sunset each day.
Originally I had planned to only post sunsets for that month and then I would switch to something different.
But I had enough positive feedback about the Sunsets, and requests to continue it.
That I chose to continue taking pictures of them.
Which has made me keenly aware of when the sun sets this past year lol. And it's been interesting to note the sun setting further North as Summer approached with it disappearing behind the horizon later and later in the day, but now that Winter is coming the sun has begun it's trek back southward and is setting earlier and earlier in the day.
But yah.
It's just like....symbolic I suppose?
How Sunsets signify the end of the day.
And How October last year...was basically the end of an era....the last full month I had where Mother Dearest was physically present on the earth.
AS she passed midway through November.
*exhales*
So it's like been bittersweet this month.
Looking back on Facebook posts I made this time last year.
Feeling a bit of dread about what's going to be posted in November....*exhales* I may just have to avoid looking at the 'year in a day' posts for the entire month.
But yah...
idk.
I just have felt more...fragile this month.
Yet still....I continue to take pictures of the sunsets.
Which I suppose it's nice to have something stable and constant in my life when there's been so much change this past year.
Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Mostly because I'm all too keenly aware that November...marks the one year versary of Mother Dearest's passing.
So like... October kinda has this symbolicness of 'the moment before everything changed.'
As last year it was so simple. So simple.
The main thing I remember about last October is that I randomly decided, after getting an Instagram account, was to spend October posting a picture of the sunset each day.
Originally I had planned to only post sunsets for that month and then I would switch to something different.
But I had enough positive feedback about the Sunsets, and requests to continue it.
That I chose to continue taking pictures of them.
Which has made me keenly aware of when the sun sets this past year lol. And it's been interesting to note the sun setting further North as Summer approached with it disappearing behind the horizon later and later in the day, but now that Winter is coming the sun has begun it's trek back southward and is setting earlier and earlier in the day.
But yah.
It's just like....symbolic I suppose?
How Sunsets signify the end of the day.
And How October last year...was basically the end of an era....the last full month I had where Mother Dearest was physically present on the earth.
AS she passed midway through November.
*exhales*
So it's like been bittersweet this month.
Looking back on Facebook posts I made this time last year.
Feeling a bit of dread about what's going to be posted in November....*exhales* I may just have to avoid looking at the 'year in a day' posts for the entire month.
But yah...
idk.
I just have felt more...fragile this month.
Yet still....I continue to take pictures of the sunsets.
Which I suppose it's nice to have something stable and constant in my life when there's been so much change this past year.
Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Sunday, October 13, 2019
Counting Ever Counting
It's that time of year again.
Where I had to go into work on a Sunday.
Why?
Because it's our Semi-Annual animal count.
*exhales*
Which, as I've stated multiple times I'm sure.
I feel is completely pointless.
I mean we literally count ALL the animals EVERY week anyways.
So like...why do we have to do an 'official one?'
*exhales*
The only benefit I suppose.
Is that this time around we got to skip two weeks worth of counting.
As apparently we didn't need to do the animal counts this week.
And since it takes a couple of days to process the count we don't need to do it this upcoming week either.
So yay for technically skipping two weeks of counting.
Though really we're just counting right in the middle of both weeks since for my work the week ends on Sunday and begins with Monday.
In any case.
This time around was also slightly different because I ended up working an actual shift.
The last time or two I've only been required to come in at close to count the animals specifically.
But today.
I worked an actual shift where I dealt with customers and needed to close and such.
Which delayed the counting of the animals a bit after we closed because I had to finish the closing tasks of the department and the manager had to finish the closing tasks for the entire store and yah...we ended up clocking out an hour later than scheduled.
Ooops.
Can't be helped.
It's kinda typical really.
It takes a couple of hours to do the counting and such.
In any case.
I halfway expected to have to catch a lot of birds today.
Because that's what normally happens when I work Sundays.
The people come in all seem to want birds.
But apparently I got my fill of that on Thursday when I last worked, because I didn't catch any birds....which I suppose is because we only had like five parakeets on the floor...meaning that everyone who wanted a bird probably already came in and got them before Sunday lol.
Instead I was mostly catching fish for everyone.
which is a rather typical task throughout the week though not as normal on Sunday.
*shakes head*
In any case.
We got all the animals counted. :D Yay! lol all 6,664 of them. Whew.
Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
Where I had to go into work on a Sunday.
Why?
Because it's our Semi-Annual animal count.
*exhales*
Which, as I've stated multiple times I'm sure.
I feel is completely pointless.
I mean we literally count ALL the animals EVERY week anyways.
So like...why do we have to do an 'official one?'
*exhales*
The only benefit I suppose.
Is that this time around we got to skip two weeks worth of counting.
As apparently we didn't need to do the animal counts this week.
And since it takes a couple of days to process the count we don't need to do it this upcoming week either.
So yay for technically skipping two weeks of counting.
Though really we're just counting right in the middle of both weeks since for my work the week ends on Sunday and begins with Monday.
In any case.
This time around was also slightly different because I ended up working an actual shift.
The last time or two I've only been required to come in at close to count the animals specifically.
But today.
I worked an actual shift where I dealt with customers and needed to close and such.
Which delayed the counting of the animals a bit after we closed because I had to finish the closing tasks of the department and the manager had to finish the closing tasks for the entire store and yah...we ended up clocking out an hour later than scheduled.
Ooops.
Can't be helped.
It's kinda typical really.
It takes a couple of hours to do the counting and such.
In any case.
I halfway expected to have to catch a lot of birds today.
Because that's what normally happens when I work Sundays.
The people come in all seem to want birds.
But apparently I got my fill of that on Thursday when I last worked, because I didn't catch any birds....which I suppose is because we only had like five parakeets on the floor...meaning that everyone who wanted a bird probably already came in and got them before Sunday lol.
Instead I was mostly catching fish for everyone.
which is a rather typical task throughout the week though not as normal on Sunday.
*shakes head*
In any case.
We got all the animals counted. :D Yay! lol all 6,664 of them. Whew.
Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!
-Sarnic Dirchi
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