Empty

 Another chip, another blow.

Today my bucket found another hole.

A drip. A drop.

Takes everything I got.

To smile. And pretend.

That it's okay. It'll soon end.

Where's a patch? Where's a hose?

Who knows when the leaks will close.

So here I go, and toil away.

Hoping my bucket will be filled today.

Yet the sun has set. The bucket's dry.

I huddle in my room, and silently cry.

For where is the water I desperately need?

To nourish my own growing seed?

Gone to others. Gone away.

Nothing's left for me this day.

Until you next find these words; I'll be watching the leaves.  Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi 

PodFic

So yesterday I got an email asking about how I felt about people creating podfics of my works.

Which, I haven't really had much experience with podfics. But it seemed like a cool idea and if a person loved my story so much they wanted to create a podfic of it then I was totally game for them to go ahead and do it so long as they properly credited me in their work.

A little bit later last night I got a notification that one of my stories had had a podfic created of it. Where the reader read my story out loud and recorded their reading to post it online.

And like...I know how my stories go. Since I wrote them. 

And for a while I've been semi-confused as to why some of my stories are so much more popular with readers than others. 

It's probably because I've seen my story like a thousand times so I have a hard time 'seeing it' as a reader would see it. 

But hearing my story read back to me?

Wow.

Like...yes I had a couple of moments where 'editor' me was like "oooh I could have written that line differently" 

But listener me?

Was amazed. Like the reader put so much emotion into telling my story to the point where I was on the edge of my seat wondering what would happen next....even though I already knew the ending of the story lol. 

It was just...it was great. To hear my work. To get a glimpse into how the reader must feel when they read my stories for the first time.

It was a cool experience.

Until you next find these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Writing Day

It's nice, to actually have the energy and motivation to work on writing.

It feels like the past little bit, I've been struggling to stay focused on my projects. To want to write in them and try and complete them.

But I've been working on trying to be more proactive.

On overcoming the hurdle of 'i can't' and 'it's too much work' to a more confident "I can do this. I want to do this" sort of thinking.

Which for today as worked.

I've been able to work on a particular wip that I've had in my drafts for a year practically untouched.

I think it helped a bit that the story involves Aliens and I've been listening to UFO related episodes on netflix today.

But it's been nice. To be able to finish a couple of chapters.

And not spend all day antagonizing over two lines when I know I could be writing faster. 

So hopefully, I'll be able to keep up this motivation, and get my wip finished sooner rather than later. ^^;; 

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves. 
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

A Jump Start

The problem with writing...is that sometimes you can overthink things.

Over think them to the point where you kinda just block yourself up.

Where the worries and the fears prevent you from just writing the story you know you can write and can see an ending to. 

But coming back to old projects?

You come back to the old fears.

To the worries.

To the nagging thought that you could be working on this older project...but what about this even older project that isn't finished either?

It's stressful.

And makes it difficult to want to start new projects when you have the old unfinished works hanging over your head.

Yet.

I wondered if getting a jump start.

Writing a new story with 'fresh blood' could spur me to get over the blocks I have with older wips.

So I took the leap.

And started a new project.

And managed to finish it.

Which was a relief.

To finally finish something.

To have enough energy and brain power to finish something.

As work has completely drained me creatively with it's evening shifts. 

So it's been nice.

To feel the drive again. To create. To write.

I can only hope to keep it as I get back to work this week.

Until you next read these words;

I'll be watching the leaves.

Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Let Me Finish

Sometimes my brain irritates me.
Especially when it comes to writing.

As I often tend to overcomplicate the stories I'm working on. To the point where it feels like each story needs to have twenty chapters or so and maybe a prequel and a sequel story to boot.

And like that's awesome and I love the whole story line and such.
But at the same time.
Part of me just wants to FINISH a story.
Write something short. sweet. Quick. Something that helps me to feel accomplished.

Because the longer I go between finishing a project the more...tense?? I become.
And the more antsy I get to finish a story.
Which is hard when I want to try and shorten something and yet the plot demands that I lengthen it instead. XP Ugh.

It's a common wrestle I've been having the past few days.
Because I have multiple stories that are 'so close' to being done.
And yet.
The ending keeps alluding me.
Keeps getting further away.

And here I am, just spinning my wheels in the sand.
Wanting to finish something and yet unable to finish anything.

*exhales*

Maybe it's a sign I need to drop my current projects. Step away for a bit longer. And work on something new or different where the pressure to 'finish' isn't quite so high. 

Guess we'll see.
But hopefully I complete something soon.
As not doing so is driving me crazy. 

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Accomplishment

So like...2 and halfish years ago.

I began posting fanfics for Detective Conan/Magic Kaito (DCMK) on Ao3 and FF as well as Tumblr. It was my beginning forays into writing fanfic and I was planning to write a bunch of DCMK stories and establish myself as a DCMK writer lol.

And then Sanders Sides happened....and I was like "Oh, I'll just write this one story then go back to DCMK!" 

Only...it wasn't just one story.
I wrote another.
And another.
And another.
As I was getting many more responses to Sanders Sides than I was with DCMK.

But I was like "Oh, I'll get back to it!"

And I told myself I would.
I made myself a promise.
Or a goal I suppose.

That until I wrote another DCMK fic, I wouldn't publish any Sanders Sides on the other sites.

As I didn't want to be one of those authors who people follow because they write for one fandom...but then is suddenly writing for another one. 

I wanted to make sure that the people who already had followed me for DCMK would still get DCMK fics and not only Sanders Sides.

So that was my goal.

Write another DCMK story.
THEN I can post my Sanders Fics! 

Only....
I kept writing Sanders Sides.
And I wasn't writing any DCMK.

But by now.
Over Two years later.

I've gotten quite the following of people who read my Sanders fics on Tumblr.
And I've gotten a couple of requests from there asking if I have my fics anywhere else.

As Tumblr can make things difficult to find on their site.
And there's no easy way to link my stories all together in one place despite my best efforts.

So the easiest way would be to just post it onto the other sites where I can keep them all together and people can easily follow me and stay up to date on fics. 

BUT.
I had made this goal.
Two years ago.
To not post on those sites until I wrote and posted another DCMK fic. 

There were multiple times I nearly threw away this goal.
Tossed it aside.

But I'm a stubborn soul when I want to be.
And I realllly didn't want to be that person that suddenly changes fandoms.

I mean...I even played with the idea of creating a second username on the other sites so that I could post the Sanders Sides there without feeling guilty about my neglected DCMK username.

But I liked the idea of all my works being together in one spot. No matter the fandom.

Sooo.
With the goal to start posting Sanders Sides to these other sites this year.
I set to work on trying to finish one of my DCMK wips.

....It wasn't going well.

BUT!
In the end, after watching some episodes in the DCMK series I ended up getting inspired and wrote a completely new story.

AND FINISHED IT!

Ha!

So today.
After TWO years I finally managed to post a DCMK fic to those sites!!

XD XD
Which means I can now start posting my Sanders Sides stories!
Woot!!

ACCOMPLISHMENT!!

It's an amazing feeling. XD lol.

Now...I just need to keep writing DCMK stories so that my followers can enjoy those fics while I also build up my rep for Sanders Sides over there as well. XD 

Lol shall be an interesting goal...we'll see how well I do in accomplishing it. ^^;; 

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Unfinished Stories

I may have just shot myself in the foot.
Not literally.
Figuratively.

As I've been working on this story concept that I wanted to post chapters of everyday leading up to Halloween.

Only I realized that in order to get all the chapters posted by Halloween....

I would have to start posting chapters....Today.

And I still have like four chapters I need to write in order to finish the story. :S :S :S

Which knowing my past track record with getting things done to a deadline....

I tend to fail those.

Writers block can be vicious.

Yet.
I'm rather confident with this one.

Mostly it's the final chapter that I'm unsure of.

But since the chapters are short, like only a page long, it shouldn't be that difficult to finish the final four chapters.

So long as life doesn't go crazy on me lol.

But yah.
With that knowledge....

I made the choice to start posting the story online. 

:S :S :S

Hopefully I can get the final four chapters finished before their posting dates. ^^;; lol 

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

You Verse

I've decided to try something different with writing this month.

As I had this concept about going trick or treating to certain characters houses.
But like...if I'm having all the characters be at their houses handing out candy and such....

That meant that there would be no one to like...be the trick or treater.

So as an experiment.

I decided to try writing in Second person.

Yah.
Second person.

The "You" story telling.

Which is definitely a different sort of story telling for sure.
But at the same time there's a lot that's similar to the other pov types of story telling.

That it hasn't been as difficult as I thought it might be. 

Of course, it probably depends on the type of story you're telling.

Me. I'm just telling each experience you have when you knock on each character's door and they hand you things. XD lol. 

But yah.
It's been a fun challenge.
Different from what I normally do.

And I can only hope that it is received well once it's done and I finally post it. ^^;; 

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Writing Struggle

It's weird how the desire to write comes and goes and ebbs and flows.
Like there are days where I'm like YAH!!! I'M WRITING LIKE CRAZY!!!
And others where I just stare blankly at the screen and am like "wat r werds?" 
*exhales*

It can be a frustrating process.
Especially on the days where you plan to write and yet have no inspiration/desire or time to write. 

Then there's the aspect where writing for me....at least story writing....takes forever.
I can spend all day on a single page.
Hours upon hours on a single chapter and not have it finished.

And that...is frustrating.
Especially when I want to write faster and get stories posted quicker.

But at the same time.
I recognize that that is unlikely to happen.
As I tend to be perfectionistic in my writing.
So it's difficult to just....let loose and let the story flow.
As I want to get it right the first time.

And sometimes when I'm struggling with a certain part.
I'll psych myself out....and be unable to write in that particular story at all.
Because I've made out the scene to be 'too intense. too much. tooo whatever" and I find it difficult to even look at the chapter let alone write anything more within it. 
*exhales*

So.
Still working on that goal.
To write faster. 

We'll see if that ever happens lol. At least today was a good 'writing day.' 

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Finished

I just finished posting my second longest story today.
Coming in at just a little over 25k words.
It's been a project I've been working on since like...maybe September or so last year?

And it's been crazy.
The difference between posting this particular fic as compared to my first long fic.

As my first long fic was over 30k words and had to be posted all within one day because I was doing it for a Big Bang event. 
And the rules for that big bang were the entire story needed to be posted on the same day.
Which was fine.
and I was rather proud of the fact that I managed to finish and post the story on my posting date last year.

But the major thing that I missed from posting it all in one go.
Was the build up.
The anticipation.
An entire story in one day means that the reader doesn't have to wait for updates.
But it also limits the amount of people who can see the story you posted unless you like reblog it like crazy afterwards. 

And without the anticipation of 'when is the next chapter coming'
It also means that I don't get to add people to taglists. I don't have people wanting to know when the next chapter comes out. I don't get people following me and talking with me and sending me asks about the chapters.

And I missed that.

I thrive off of feedback from my readers and posting the story all in one shot limited my ability to adjust the chapter if it needed adjusting.

As that's one thing that I've found while posting multichaptered stories is that it gives me time to see what the readers are anticipating, to notice details I had glossed over and to see which parts of the story would need improvement.

Posting it all at once?
Yah you just gotta rely on yourself and hope you made good judgement calls on everything that happened.

And having only had the Big Bang Fic as my longest fic before this point....

I honestly wasn't expecting a huge reaction when I posted the first of eleven chapters. 
As I've posted first chapters of multi-chaptered stories. But those stories are short usually under 5 chapters long.

This one was 11 chapters.
25k words. 

And posting a chapter twice a week...that's still like 5 weeks of posting. Over a month. So there's a lot of time to build up anticipation in readers.

I just didn't expect such a huge response. 
From the very first chapter....people were hooked. Wanting more. Excited for updates.
My taglist got super long.
Like over a page of names long. 
It was crazy.

With this ONE story I had around 400 people follow me. 
O.o 
And that's crazy.
So crazy because previous stories usually get me like 5-20 people following me.
So to have 400 people. 

It's huge.
I've never expected such a response.

But I'm grateful for the experience. 
To see people's anticipation and their reactions to each chapter. XD lol.

And it was also great to help me make the story better. 
As it helped me see things that were missing in later chapters.
And it gave me time to adjust them.
To make the story better.

Like I'm pretty sure I added about 6k words after I began posting the story.
As with each huge response I got.
Came the pressure of wanting to be better. To please the audience. To make sure I didn't disappoint them.

So like chapters 5 and on ended up going through major rewrites to ensure that the chapter was in it's best condition before I posted it. ^^;; 

And it was so worth it.

It makes me a little sad that my Big Bang Fic couldn't have the opportunity to get a similar response because it was all posted in one day last year.

But writing is always about learning.
And I loved the learning experience of both.
And how I've grown from writing both long fics.

I can't wait for the next story.

^^;;
Hopefully the response is just as positive for the next fic as it was for this one. ^^;; 

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Dreams Come True

So the past handful of weeks, I've been posting chapters from a fic that I wrote.
And like....I've kinda just been standing back flabbergasted at the response my story is getting.

Like it's the second longest one I've written at 11 chapters. 

But I didn't expect it to gain as much traction as it has.
I mean...I've gained like 200 more followers since I've started posting the story.

And it's...crazy.
So crazy to see how popular it's getting.
So popular.

Like on a Word Document I have like a page and a half of people asking to be tagged when I update the next chapter. O.o 

But like it's been fun too.
Fun to see how many people are loving the story and commenting on it and calling me....well calling me amazing. Heh lol. 

So it's been fun!

But then like, last night, one of the popular bloggers I follow....followed me back.
And read my story.

(I had a couple other popular bloggers follow me too for this story which is crazy. Like. What?! You're following me?!) 

But this particular blogger is an artist.
One of my favorite artists for the fandom I write for because GAH. Their art is soooo amazing!
Words can't describe it I just love their style.

And I wake up this morning to see that they've read all the story that I've had posted so far.
And they sent me a link to an ask they got asking if they would be interested in drawing for my fic because the person following them had noticed them reblogging my story....

And the artist was like "Maybe....if Sarnic's alright with a more angsty version. Because I love this! But I tend to make things angsty." 

Like....
YES.
Can you imagine?! Like my favorite artist in the fandom drawing artwork for MY story?! It's just....my brain can't comprehend it.

So I was like "I am totally okay with this!" 

Because I have secretly been hoping that a popular artist would read my story and love it and draw art for it.

AND IT HAPPENED!!

AHHHH!!!

They sent me the finished product and it. Is. GLORIOUS!

I could barely focus at work (because I got the notification that they'd posted it while I was at work)

AND I LOVE IT!!
I'm so excited.
So very excited!

I just can't even....ahhhh I love it! 

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

All Those Prompts

So on Tumblr, there's these writing prompts that go around.

You know things from sentence starters, to scenes, to character questions and such that people can reblog and other people can send in prompts for to have the blogger well....write.

So yesterday. 
I did that.

Reblogged one of those prompts.
You know, thinking that I might get one or two. Maybe three.

And that's how it started. 
I just got two prompts.

Hours apart.

And I was like "Great." Because they were quick and easy to answer.
And I didn't think there would be more to that, but it was a fun writing distraction for me and helped me to you know...just be creative and think outside of the box.

But then I answered the second prompt.

And like instead of getting the minimal attention I thought it would.
Like maybe 30 notes?

The story got super popular.
Having crossed like the 200 note mark in under 24 hours.

And with that popularity---

Also came more asks.

First it was one...then three...then five.

And I figured it was fine. I could answer those.
I could get them done in the next day or two.

But no.
They keep coming in.

I hav like 15 or so asks that are from that one post I reblogged.

:S :S :S

And now I'm wondering if I'll ever get them all answered.
*exhales*

I know I will.
It just might take me some time.
As writing stories can take me all day sometimes to get a single page down.

Sooo yah.

I had quite the unexpected response.
And I'm feeling the pressure to get them all written and done.....

Wish me luck! 

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Popular??

So I'm in the process of posting chapters to the most recent story that I've finished writing.
It's my second longest one at nearly 15k words long and 11 chapters. 

Most of the time if I do multi-chapter stories I stick with 3-5 chapters.

So 11 is a lot.

And the concept is one that I've been personally looking forward to with...well a bit of trepidation.

Because it's hard to predict which stories will be popular and which ones won't in a fandom.

Some gain immediate attention.
Others never do or take months to do so. 

So I always hope that a story will be popular.
But I usually expect to only get like maybe 100 notes and such.

But this story I've been posting?

Well I'm only on chapter 4 of the 11.

And like.
It's crazy the response I've gotten.

Some of the popular bloggers in the fandom have requested that they be added to the taglist so they're updated when I post the next chapter (as I'm posting a chapter twice a week) or have followed me. And it's like crazy.

Because usually when I post a new story, I gain like maybe 5-20 followers after I do.

Not this story.
No I've jumped up at least 100 followers already.
and I'm only on Chapter 4!

Like.
I'm feeling the pressure.
Will people like the remaining 7 chapters as much as they've liked the first 4? 
Will I continue to gain like 20-40 followers with EVERY chapter? 

It's crazy.
It's crazy crazy crazy.
I never expected the story to get so popular like this.
And I'm just. Geeking out about it.

I really hope they like the remaining chapters.

Because it's stressing me out not knowing. ^^;; 

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Writing Woes

Writing can be such a frustrating thing.
Like, when I'm blogging, I don't usually have to think much over the words.
So posts can go pretty quickly and I feel like I'm a fast amazing writer.

But when it comes to writing for stories?
It feels like I'm a snail, moving so slowly that I can be stuck on the same line for hours, if not days.
It takes hours to write a paragraph. Takes days to finish a chapter if the scene I'm working on is being particularly difficult. 

Today was one of those days.
Well, really the past couple of days has been 'one of those' days where I've worked in multiple fics, and yet progress has been practically non existant. Maybe a page here. A line there.

And hours upon hours....of time spent....just trying to find the right words. The right way to portray the scene.

Gah.
I know I can write faster.
This blog post shows I can write faster.

I just need to stop trying to be such a perfectionist in getting the story to flow right...and you know, just let loose. Write without thinking too much about it. 

….it's just hard some days. 
Most days.

It's definitely hard. 

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Writing Things

Writing.
Writing writing writing.
It's been one of those weeks where I've started like six different projects because they'll be 'quick' and 'easy' and you know.... 'short.' 

They haven't been. 

I mean the concepts themselves are short....most of them.
It's just writing isn't as always as my brain thinks it will be.

Especially when I have headaches that make it difficult to focus. 

So it's a....trial really.
Because I want to write ALL the ideas.
But like they take forever to write. Gah. 

Note to self.
Finish more stories. 

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

A Little Prodding

*exhales*
Sometimes I wonder what I get myself into.
Though to be fair, I didn't think anyone would respond.

So like, it's no secret that I write.
I've had the goal to write at least one fic-one story- a month and post it online. 

But on Friday...I just wasn't feeling that inspired.
Like...I wanted to write, but my current writing projects were being more daunting than I was able to handle.

So while scrolling through Tumblr I saw a prompt ask list thing.
Where you reblog it and people can then send you prompts from the list for you to write a short story about. 
(Ha. Short. Ha.) 

And since I wasn't being productive otherwise (mostly because I was fighting a headache and looking for a distraction) 

I reblogged it basically saying "Hey send me one, I need a distraction." 

Though from past track records.
Reblogging those things works like...once every six reblogs.
And it was like my first time reblogging a writing prompt ask thingy.

So like...I didn't know what to expect.

As I'm known occasionally as a writer there.
But I'm not famous famous in the circles I wander in lol. 

So needlessly I was surprised to get not one, but TWO writing prompts from people.

And like. ()_()

Agh.

The full realization of how much trouble I was in hit pretty hard. lol.
Though funnily enough I was up for the challenge.

As writing can go one of two ways.
It's easy and I get it done in like a day or two....
Or I struggle hard core and it takes months to write out five chapters. 

The first prompt.
Easy.
Wrote it in a day.
But I ran out of time for the second prompt....

Which is bad because usually after a 'good' day of writing....I usually end up with like two or three days where for whatever reasons (like evil headaches) I can't write or don't have time or you know...problems.

Yah that's what happened here with that second prompt.
Ran out of time, encountered more headaches and yah....
Still working on that second prompt.

But the good thing about said writing prompts, is that it gets me to write a bit faster.
Because I know that there's someone waiting to see what I've written.
And I don't want to leave them hanging for too long.

Therefore. I write a bit faster than when I'm writing a story that no one (besides my confidant) knows I'm writing. ^^;;;

Lol so pros and cons to the writing prompts things.
Pros. I WROTE!! woot!!

Cons....I delayed my other projects I shouldn't be delaying. Oops. ^^;; 

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Goals

The First Day of 2019.
The first day of the 'new goals' for those who like doing new years resolutions and such.

Which yah. Goals have been on my mind.
Though I usually have more success in starting goals in September than January lol.

Still. Last year I had the goal to write 'a story a month'
-Okay technically it was two. 
But within the month I dropped it to one. 
And I managed to keep that goal!! :D 
Yay me!! lol. 
Some months it was by the skin of my teeth that I was able to post a story. 
But I still did it!

Ah. Sweet Success. lol. 

Which means I've turned my head to potential goals of 2019. 
The main one being. 
Write more.
Part of me wants to try to get 3 stories done a month.
Because my brain thinks I can write that fast.
But mostly its the goal of writing for Detective Conan, for Sanders Sides and then writing a sequel story from one of the two.

But it's not just writing.
Like I have reading goals to read more books this year.
But is it like a book a month or a book a week? No idea.

Then I want to draw more too.
Which that's also time consuming.

Plus stay up to date on blogging and scripture reading and journaling 
And at the end of the day....
I just don't have enough time lol.

Mostly because I lose a few hours after work by a) taking a nap because work exhaust me and/or b) scrolling around on Tumblr for a few hours.

...maybe I need to lessen my time on Tumblr lol. 
Get to bed earlier so I'm not tired after work....so less naps....

*exhales* Who knows though.

In any case.
I have a lot of 'things I want to do'
And very little time to do them in.

So like...do I focus on one thing a day?
Like Monday I work on one story.
Tuesday another
Wednesday another
Thursday I draw
Friday I read?

*exhales*
I don't see that working out well.
But it is a thought.
I just need to wrap  my head around what I want to actually get done.
And what I can feasibly get done.
And then do it. 

Today....didn't really accomplish much in those 'potential' goals lol.
Mostly because I wanted to get journaling and scripture reading set to straights first as I neglected them like....all of December.
(I've had a lot on my mind)
But yah.

I'm looking forward to finding a groove.
Finding a way where I can write and draw and read and you know....socialize at some point lol.

So yah.
It's going to be an interesting 2019. And hopefully a productive one too. ^^;;

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

An Outside Perspective

It's interesting.
Writing.
How you can get so focused on something.
And get stuck.
And then like a simple comment from a friend/reader/etc could make things so clear.

Like I've been struggling to figure out how to write the ending to one of my fics, feeling like what I was writing was too cheesy.
So I showed the snippet I was working on to my friend, just to see her reaction and to see if it was as cheesy as I was thinking it was.

And she was like "No! Are you kidding! This is like the moment the whole story has been building up to!" 

Which took me aback.
It was?
And like....looking over the story. ^^;; lol it totally is.
But I was so focused on something else that I didn't see it. I didn't see the bigger picture. The overarcing arc...and like. :D It's great.

Lol. It's fun with writing how you can put so much symbolism and foreshadowing and motives and your readers will often make connections that you didn't even know were there.

Which is great. ^^;; When one is stuck on how to proceed lol. 

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Writing Writing Writing

It's been a rather productive week for me. Writing wise. 
I managed to finish like four different stories.
-Three of them were already partially written and I managed to get over my writer's block regarding them. Woot! The other one I wrote in like two days. So double woot! :D 

Ah. It's been so amazing.
To be able to complete a handful of the mountain of writing projects I've been working under lol. 

Which means....I'm not too surprised that I haven't been able to write the past couple of days.
Part of it may be from switching locations as we left the place we'd been staying at for the past week to spend the weekend elsewhere. 
The other just might be....a bit of burn out. I've been going so much recently in regards to writing.
That my brain probably needs a couple of days to rejuvenate and regain the creativity and drive to read and edit and finish the things. 

*exhales*
It's frustrating to stare at stories and just....have nothing work.

So I'm totally looking forward to my brain kicking back into gear. lol. 

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

A Long Time Coming

So back in like...March? The beginning of the spring.
I signed up for this Big Bang thing.

Where people would agree to write a longer story to be published in August, -originally the length was to be 30k before being dropped down to 15k. So that people could read one big story all at once, instead of it being spaced out chapter wise over days, weeks or even months. 
-As fandom land...people tend to write a chapter and post it.

This Big Bang was to have an entire story posted. So fans of the fandom could read it.

And then as well, there would be artists partnered with the authors who would be able to see the story before the publishing date so that they could create artwork for your story to be released on the same day as the story was published online.
That way fans get both story and art and it's all so amazing. 

lol.
Admittedly I hesitated for like a month to sign up.
I had a concept in my head. An idea I could write...that I was pretty confident would meet the 30k mark (as they didn't drop the wordcount until like halfway in?) 
But it was a matter of....writing the thing.

I'm not the fastest writer ever.
On a good day it would take me like an hour to write a page in a fic I'm working on. 
Plus I can get bogged down with blocks and such, trying to figure out how a story should go.

I didn't want to sign up for something I wouldn't be able to finish. 
And I didn't want to let my assigned artist down either.

So it was a lot of pressure.

Plus I had this other primary writing goal to write at least one story a month. 
Which...I figured I'd find it difficult to write a story back in March/April....and not post it until August. It just...didn't sit well with me to have a story ready and waiting for that long.

Still.
After talking to people and such.
I took the leap and signed up for this Big Bang.

And promptly procrastinated the entire thing. *shakes head* 
Ugh. I knew I would. 
After all I had that first writing project so finishing those short stories would take precedence over the Big Bang....
So I chipped away at this larger fic. Writing only every now and then...
Until like July when I finally finished the fic I needed to post for July.
Which then meant I could focus my whole attention on this 30k fic (I figured my story would still be at least 30k it was a long concept and the min was now 15k so it was fine if I was way over)

But ugh.
Writing.
Writing went so slowly.
I was basically down to the wire.
Writing early into the morning on the day I was to post my story. 
-As we were all assigned specific days to post our stories on. 

But I did it.
I actually DID IT! HA!!!

39k and I got my story finished.
And took like forever and a day to post it onto the site because gah. Formatting and so many chapters.

But the feeling of accomplishment?
AHHHH
I DID IT!
It's the longest fic I've written so far.
And it just feels amazing to get something accomplished.
Get it posted.
Have others reading it. 
Loving it.
Reacting to it.

It's great. ^^;; Lol It made the stress of the entire spring/summer worth it.

Will I do this sort of thing again??
Who knows.
But at least I know that I can do it. XD and that's a great feeling. ^^;; 

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi