This Is Halloween

Happy Halloween Everybody!

I thought I'd celebrate the holiday by trying something I haven't tried before on my blog.

Dun Dun Dun

Putting up a video!

This song has been stuck in my head for about 24 hours now :) lol

I came across this video above while watching a video my brother put up on youtube.

I thought it was awesome.

And the image/music has stayed with me this...very unhalloweeny night/day.

Its odd. This might be the first Halloween where I haven't done anything to celebrate the holiday on the day.

Hey..I wore orange! That's something ;) lol

Yah...its a rather...lame Halloween for me.

No Trick or Treating or nuttin. 

I've basically been doing homework since I got home from school today XP bleh. At least the theme is appropriate. Why not study the grisly details of the body for my anatomy midterm while eating candy and listening to Halloween music on Halloween?

Oh man... I hope I don't give myself nightmares by doing this....

Until you next read these words;

I'll be watching the leaves.

Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Hakuna Matatas and Prince Charmings

Tonight there was a Stake Relief Society Meeting.
-Priesthood had a meeting at the same time in the other chapel.

These meetings are usually fun, mostly because the Stake Relief Society tells us how they met their husbands, how long they've dated, how long they've been married, and other short stories. lol alot of them are funny, some are sweet, and others down right cool.
Then Sister Livingston got up to talk. (I don't think I spelt her last name right.) She's the wife of the Stake President.

And she had some really good quotes.
That basically went along the lines of the this:

"Sometimes our Prince Charmings aren't very timely are they?"

"I used to think that my future husband had died in the war in heaven."

"When the boys are off having their Hakuna Matata its up to the girlfriends to go get them and remind them that they're kings with responsibilities." 

Where it basically made light of the simple sentiment.
That most of the girls are going dateless these days.
And in the words of Brother Livingston...its because the guys are "Wicked" and not asking the girls on dates.
Who knows why this is?
But it is apparent that not much dating is going on in this area.
Perhaps its because the guys are trying too hard. Perhaps they're not trying hard enough, they're just content to 'hang out'
Perhaps the girls are intimidating to the guys. ;) after all we're all "Wonderful upstanding young women" are we not? lol.

But overall the topic of the meeting was.
Be patient. They will come. You will get a date, you will meet the one. You will get married, have kids. Just have Patience. The Lord has everything in hand according to his time table. :)

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

The Dream

Debrah (a girl who works in the Library) was heading out on a trip, and her friend Taylor was coming with her. They were at the airport going through security. I followed them up til after they passed through the checks because I wasn't going on the trip with them. (Debrah looked like my friend Jess sometimes. the two of them kept switching back and forth) But yah, they walked up to a couple of...cubicle counter office looking spaces, following the rope line things. Debrah went to the closer one, Taylor ended up turning left and heading to one further down the check through line. Debrah got done pretty quickly, so we were waiting for Taylor to get done, but AT had to catch her flight. (Debrah now became AT) so I followed her along the wooden walkway and watched her go down the stairs. At the bottom of the stairs was her husband UB. He came up the stairs and I was on the wooden deck/patio thing of a house basically waiting to welcome them home. And I thought to myself, I could ask them now...no, I was going to check in with my mom first to make sure it was alright, so I asked them a different question.

Then the unholy tones of daylight pulled me away....
and I became myself again.

-S.N.D

All at Once

It seemed like everything came down upon my head at once.
The poor thing.
It was dealing with a nose that would be runny,  ultra clear, or stuffy,
a sore throat
sore gums
and then.
It was walloped upside itself with a sudden stabbing headache/migraine.
Which brought into more focus
the aching ears
and the sensitive eyes.

So...excuse the short post today :) lol the dream should make up for it. :)
Now, to go rest my head so its prepared for the ongoing week.

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

The Dream


I was in this backyard. Green grass. A deck in the distance.
I was with a bunch of little kids (some were my cousins) and my siblings around the swing set, though
it was just the frame, no swings.
And I was by the pole with a cardboard box thing holding three grande tacos.
While a woman showed us her dog.
Which in my mind looked alot like a wolf.
It was a cool dog thin and lean.
and I convinced it to nuzzle with me, though I was having trouble keeping the dog out of the food.
It kept wanting the food, but I managed to not let him have any of it.
There were water balloons there as well...and getting bored with the woman's presentation...
I start a water fight with the kids.
Though it seemed to go in spurts where we were still obediently listening to the woman.
But throwing water balloons as well.
I happened to look up.
And there were these red corpuscles floating down from the sky. They were about the size of a small marble. and they just drifted down.
I thought of them as beetles.
But  I didn't want them to land on me.
So I took to the deck.
Avoiding the things as much as I could and throwing water balloons.
I think it started raining as well for a bit.
and the bugs were falling and it seemed like if they touched you they exploded and it was painful.
So I ducked undercover with three or so water balloons in my arms.
When I saw my 2 year old cousin Cassidy run into the house with a balloon it was...yellow or orange...but basically as big as she was.
And I knew that her parents didn't want water balloons in the house....because Cassidy might drop it and make a big mess. (plus it was like a family gathering so alot of the adults were there) so I tore after her, but I took a different route, I went around and went up the back wooden steps of the porch, by passing this that and the other...junky looking stuff that never is played with anymore and get into the house. I see Cassidy there with the balloon and I manage to get it from her before she accidentally drops it. I went back outside and placed it carefully on the...step...deck...for Cassidy to have later, because I didn't want to break her new 'toy' I then basically skipped down the steps and placed my remaining three water balloons on them as well. It was starting to get windy and I did have the thought that they might blow off...but I didn't concern myself with it.
I went around back to where I was, but then after walking down the hill, like my parents have that leads to the backyard...I went under the deck, and below it was my parents backyard patio. It was rather dusty with bags of this and that and wooden benches and leaves and spiderwebs....its open to the weather so anyone could come in. And I saw four...I think it was four. stuffed animals on the ground. Two of them were copies of one of my stuffed animals named Lucky, the other two also were the same stuffed animal with slight differences, but I don't remember what they were. Oh they were another type of stuffed animal Dalmatian, one was hiding beneath a...hollowed out portion of the edge of the wall, a lucky stuffed animal was under a bench... I remembered seeing them earlier, drenched and soaking wet, but now they were dry. I didn't want them to be soaking wet so I picked up the four stuffed animals and moved them to some black plastic bags, placing them on top so they wouldn't fall and get wet again.
After that I went to head....further into the house and happened to look on my left. There in the basement desperately trying to close three sets of sliding doors (thick walled ones that are used for security purposes that split like elevator doors) was Kikay's cat. The cat was human sized (meaning it was huge..almost the same size as the wolf...I think it was the wolf first but now it looked like a Siamese cat a little..) Anyway her cat was trying to use her paws to close all three doors at the same time, because the cat/wolf thing didn't like storms. I went over to it and knelt down and started caressing the ears and comforting the creature and it seemed like we were suddenly in my old bedroom upstairs....and I had to get to school.
I got into my philosophy class and sat down. It was a big classroom where there were only around 15 desks with alotHighSchool. I knew there was a bathroom to my left so I turned and went there...only to find a sign hanging on the big doors. That said something along the lines of "This Bathroom is closed, the female bathroom can be found...." I don't remember where it said. But it was up by the Jamba Juice area. I thought that was rather unfair, because the guy's bathroom was still open, but it looked like the girls bathroom would never exist there again because they took down all the signs marking it as a girl's bathroom. And I was like "crap, I don't have time to run all the way up to the other side of the building to go to that bathroom, but I dont' think I can focus in philosophy with my bladder calling so. So..I went in search of another bathroom. I found one like four steps down the hallway, but when I went inside...all the toilets were in one place halfway like a community shower...and i didn't want to go in public for anybody to see...so i left, and as I came out...there was a girl with her dog coming in. The girl was familiar to me but I don't remember who she was now. But apparently that bathroom was a bathroom where girls could take their dogs to go to the bathroom...so basically the dogs were trained to go to the bathroom inside. Anyway, I left and moved onward seeing a couple of other bathrooms, but I decided I'd just run to the end of the hallway where the jamba juice was and go to that bathroom. So I ran, and took the branching hallway (in real life it leads to the events center) and the hallway led upwards into a kind of 'automotive/mechanical center' though...it had a technical gadget edge to it. But the building was rather rickety. I think it might have been hanging over a cliff, and it would sway back and forth almost like a ship moving forward and back. but here was a bathroom I could use. But as I was getting ready to go, a girl with thick curly brown/blonde hair with glasses pops her head over the wall and basically says she's testing the toilets and asked me to flush mine. (the girl reminded me of a girl named Hannah that I randomly met at school yesterday.) So I did...and the water overflowed. She said I needed to be more gentle with the handle. I didn't really care, all I wanted was to be able to go. so I sat down, but I had to halfway recline and sit in an awkward position due to the rocking of the building and not wanting the water to get on me and yah....I was glad to finally be done because it seemed like more people would peer over the walls of my stall to look at what I was doing. I got out of the stall and went to wash my hands, noticing that my watch had disappeared. I almost had a mini panic attack because I thought "what if I had accidentally flushed it" but when I looked to my left I saw basically a set of three girls and guys all looking over the top of another bathroom stall, observing the person who was in there, and one of the boys was wearing my watch. The girl -hannah- who first talked to me, said that he was keeping it safe, (I was trying to figure out how he got it without me noticing) and the boy -he was kinda cute- gave it back to me. I didn't stay long because I had to go back to my class...I was totally late now. Like in a 'class is almost over' sort of way. And the bathroom...was being weird...suddenly it connected with the boys bathroom as well and the two exit doors didn't lead to an exit they led to about the same place...the boys bathroom/locker room. It was a weird conglomeration of the girls and guys space. Anyway I tore through it, trying to find a way out when I realized that the way I was moving was like in part of the ear of the upside down Mickey Mouse head that was my highschool. Once I realized that, I found the gym and ran through that before finally getting back outside. There my sister was waiting for me. I got in the car and we took off heading back home...in a snow storm...or what had been a snow storm, there was still snow thick on the roads so we were being carefully driving back and Kikay was telling me how not fun it was to drive over to pick me up


When the unholy tones of daylight pulled me away....
and I became myself again.


-S.N.D

A Des(s)ert Place

So yesterday, I posted this on facebook:


"is a half-step away from bursting into tears....for no reason what-so-ever."


then, three hours later I posted:


"Dear Four-Sided Objects; Why are you all Rectangular?! I need Square! Sincerely with lots of love -Sarnic"


These posts actually didn't have anything to do with each other.
Besides the concept that I was trying to find a way to cheer myself up,
that involved finding a square object to use as a...stencil...outline thing.
And all I was finding in my apt were Squares.


That was rather frustrating,but I found away to work with the rectangles to get my square.


Anyway, I didn't think much more about my facebook posts....


Until I got a text from a member of the Institute Council
saying that I needed to check my box (we have a box to place papers...i would describe it..but I can't..)
before the end of the day with a double big PLEASE PLEASE at the end.
I was like. O.o Okay........
I was passing by the institute at that moment, so I made a detour and checked my box.
To see....
Nothing in it.
lol
And then I looked in my co-chair's box.
And there were papers dealing with publicity.
As well as a note from the person who texted.
Basically saying that we were awesome, and life is crazy, and that he wanted to help out more....
I left the note in the box because it was addressed to all the co-chairs, not just myself...so I don't have it right now.
But then I noticed.
Hey.
There is half a bar of Cookies and Cream Chocolate.
Okay..so I noticed the note sticking out of the chocolate before I noticed the chocolate itself.


And the note said:


I hope you smile instead of cry.
Rectangles are really easy to make into squares.
Squares are not.
Have a fantastic day.


lol, I have to admit that I was trying to figure out if the LDSSA member actually had read my facebook status or not...I was thinking not...and I was trying together who it was.
When I read I read ...your fantastic life, you fantistic fosh. you. :)
(I spelt it how I see it... )
but that last line...is a quote from a favorite movie of mine. Megamind.


Megamind.


A good friend of mine. :)
And all the pieces clicked into place.


lol and it was sweet. for the Cookies and Creme chocolate bar (my favorite chocolate bar) had been cut into a square shape. and the note had a piece bent so that when it was folded it was square shaped too.


A smile came upon my face.
And my day got brighter.


Twas a good day after that. ^^

The thought "Rectangles are really easy to make into squares."
stuck with me today.
and a couple of hours after I read the note, I went to a devotional.
Where a teacher Brother Monson (no relation to President Monson)
gave a talk about "Desert" Places.

Where he talked about the points in your life...
where you basically hit a desert.
a plateau spiritually.
Where what you were doing before, doesn't give you the same spiritual feeling now.
But that doesn't mean that you will stay in the desert forever.
There are greener....or in this case whiter and chocolatier places coming your way.

Look for the Dessert on the edge of the Desert, for then you will find joy.

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!


-Sarnic Dirchi

An Hourglass Moment

"Life's like an Hourglass, glued to the table."

I woke up today with that line running through my head.

It was kind of that "Life rolls on." thought.

That stuck with me all of today.
In a meh...way.

Its not like today was bad day.
Similar events happened like the rest of this week.
Which was....a rather low week this week.

I think its a low week just because of....being critiqued more?
Like critiques have been equal with compliments.
Its just been a week that isn't bad, but it isn't good.

Yet....life rolls on.

Don't sweat the things that happen today or even yesterday.
There is still tomorrow.
Life will roll on.

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirch

You said No? Oh, I said Yes.

Do you ever remember....when you were little,
Going up to one of your parents and asking them for something.
And they told you "No."
So, you went to the other parent and asked them the same thing...
and they said "Yes."
Then...when the parents found out...you got into a whole lot of trouble?
Because basically it 'divided' the parents?

Well...I had that experience today.
Not in the married w/ kids sense.
But in my Institute thing.

I was approached to head an activity for the end of November by the head advisor of the LDSSA along with a member of my committee and told of the situation of having to do this and that and that it would be fine, to do just fill out a form.
Well filling out the form involved getting my teacher advisor's signature.
Which wasn't a big deal right. We had the basics down, I didn't see that there would be a problem.
But when I went to the teacher ready for him to sign....

I got the 'divided parent' thing.
For apparently the committee member had already talked to the teacher advisor who told him that he needed to talk to the guy who is in charge of the usual electronic publicity in the Institute. Which I think the committee member did...and they went to the head teacher advisor of the LDSSA who liked the idea and thought it was good.....
So it went into this big circle.
And I got caught up in the middle of it.

*shakes head* Sometimes I feel like we don't talk to each other.
For I didn't have a problem with the concept.
While my advisor did.
So I basically said Yes
while the advisor said No
but I didn't know he had said No....so I went ahead with the committee member and got it planned...
and when I went to get this activity signed...
I ended up having to defend the activity.
And convince the advisor that we could do this, and that the committee member knew how to do everything that needed to be done because he's technical like that.
I convinced him and got the signature...

but I was left feeling....out of the loop.
Like I had missed some 'mental mind communication' or something.
Because we don't talk to each other when things happen.

*sighs*
Oh well, we'll see how the cards lay at the end of this shall we?
Hopefully I can avoid these "Yes/No" situations in the future.

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

The Hot Fudge Sundae

Today Kikay wasn't feeling that well.
So...to try and make her feel better, I asked her what I could do for her.
And she said "Bring me a Hot Fudge Sundae"

This is halfway a running gag with her, for whenever we're not feeling well...
or she's not feeling well and Kikay is asked what someone could do to help her feel better.
She responds with "Bring me a Hot Fudge Sundae."
Most of the time people laugh her off, because she's not being serious.
But today I decided to take her seriously.
Sooo I went and got her a hot fudge sundae.
But it was more of an adventure then that.
For I had to make sure that Kikay wouldn't realize what I was doing.
So today I had class until 5:15.
While I was walking home, I texted her that I would be staying late at the institute.
I didn't go into specifics because if you get too specific people can get suspicious if you haven't been specific in the past.
Anyway. I told her I would be home by six and that we'd have dinner then.
So at 5:30ish I got home, and went straight to the car.
Then I drove down to Wal-Mart.
Why?
Captain America came out today on DVD and I HAD TO HAVE IT!
So I did that quick side trip before driving up to Arctic Circle
-I passed by our complex twice where our windows over look the road and I was hoping that Kikay wouldn't look out at that moment and see the car. -She didn't. :)
I drove up to Arctic Circle and got her a hot fudge sundae as well as some real food.
Then I drove back arriving about 6:05.
I came in and presented her with the Sundae, and the with the food. :)
lol She was surprised and it made her night. :D

It was a fun adventure. :)

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

The Dream

Involved...going to a theatre..sneaking in...and hopping rivers...and my brother bringing his girlfriend along when it was just a family thing with the schaers....it was rather complicated and involved getting ready for something at some point....

-S.N.D

Late For Real This Time

Once again, I have been faced with utter devastating bitter disappointment.

What happened you might ask?
Did Bill Nye strike again?
No.

....I was late for a meeting. :(

You might be wondering why being late to a meeting will invoke such utter despair from one such as I.
Well...

You see, I'm on the LDSSA Council at the Institute.
And I found out at the beginning of the year, during the 'pass the torch' ceremony, that if you are ON TIME to every single SEVEN AM meeting...that you can choose a really really AWESOME prize from this basket as a reward.

I really really really wanted that prize!
I even told my sister so last night.
And hence....my downfall.
I woke up on time today...but thought to myself "Oh, I can sleep five more minutes."
>.< I thought my alarm would go off again.
...it didn't.
Next thing I knew...my CoChair was texting me asking where I was and if I was coming...
I looked at the clock. My heart already sinking to my toes.
To see it said 7:02.

I was late.

And this time....I couldn't be "Late but Early" like I had been in the past.
No this time.
I was Late.

*sniff to the millionthzillionth degree*

The prize.
Is Gone.
Out of my reach.

I was utterly devastated.
To the point of tears.
Because I really really really wanted that prize. To have that accomplishment of being on time every time!

It was like....I found out I wasn't going to make the Celestial Kingdom.
That's rather extreme,
but this morning at that point in time.
That's how I felt.
I felt like I had had a taste of the glory...only to be cast into outer darkness
Where I could never gain that prize.

It was actually frightening to think of it that way.
After one slip up...
Outer Darkness.

I even thought to myself "What's the point of showing up on time to the meetings now? I won't get the prize?"

But therein I think is the key.
What is the point of showing up on time now?
Its a test. (to prove to myself that there are other reasons)
The 'worldly reason' is now gone.
Will I stick to it for a spiritual reason?
To get more spiritualness and all that?

The answer is: Yes.
I'm still disappointed. :(
But I'm going to do my best to be on time for the rest of my year.

heh...mostly because I'm hoping...that in the end...I will get a cool prize too.
Even if I wasn't 100% on time...maybe there is something for the 99% on time.
Or perhaps...as a thank you for the hard work I do...

lol.
It was actually rather sweet today....after the bitter disappointment.
Because one of the Secretaries gave me a couple of kisses 'to make it better' -she could see I was really upset...heh... I tend to "close in on myself when I'm upset. Head down, not talking...yah."
And throughout the day, I received compliments for my hard work, and skills and such.
Which did bring a smile back to my face :)

Though in the moment...it wasn't all that comforting.
It was like being given a piece of green glass in the shape of a stone...when I could have gotten the real emerald at the end of the year.
It just wasn't the same.

But...it did help :)

And somehow...this experience of being late. Was probably a blessing in disguise.
Maybe if I had been on time...something would have happened...that might have been bad.
That's what I usually think when things don't go my way...
That there is a reason.
Usually its a nice "slap down" after being "prideful" right before. A "remember to be humble Sarnic, don't get caught up in your awesomeness too much."
But then again...there might be a reason for why I was late...that had bigger ramifications...
I won't know til the movie in heaven most likely.

Still....it was disappointing,
However, I'm glad to have the blessing of "quick healing."
Okay its not really quick healing...but I do have a tendency to get over bitter disappointment...after an hour or so.
You could say that I don't wallow in my misery for long.
Even when I was in the depths of misery, I was already trying to find ways to pick myself up out of the muck and move on.
Telling myself that I'll probably get another prize.
That I have the opportunity now to prove that I am dedicated not to the prize, but to serving the Lord.
Stuff like that.
And it helps.
Though its still a twingeful bit painful.
It will fade with time.
And I'll manage to get back to my usual self pretty quickly. :)
>.< I'll also be sure to NOT say "five more minutes" on MONDAY mornings in the future. ;) lol

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

A Needed Change

I didn't want to go today
So, I had to run away
For the one who held me oh so dear
Would never again be so near
Again, I ran not to wait
For the one by that old garden gate
I ran to please me, myself, and I
And forget the pain that caused me to cry.
By passing through cloud, stream, and plain
I managed to find what I sought again.
The peace and comfort in their arms
Helped me relax and feel safe from harm.
Because I didn't go today.
I found solace in that sunny ray.
And felt that they would ever be near
To wipe away the stormy tear
In that sunny ray I did stand
knowing that they will always lend a supporting hand.
For when I need to run away
And find a peaceful place to pass the day.
                                -S.N.D

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

The Dream

I was looking at pictures of a canyon place in Hawaii.
Then suddenly I was with my family, we were in the car, on vacation.
And as we turned the corner in a high canyon we were driving in, another canyon opened up below us.
Looking exactly like the picture I had been looking at earlier.
I got out my camera and began taking pictures.
We passed by a hole canyon...that had some special thing to it...that I can't remember anymore.
It was like if you stepped into it...something would happen.

But the unholy tones of daylight pulled me away....
and I became myself again.

-S.N.D

4 Institute Classes

A while ago I was talking with a someone...
and they mentioned that others like to have me around.
That they look forward to seeing me and talk about my visits after I'm gone.
And the individual doesn't really understand it, because they feel like they've worn out their welcome with the same group.
I told them, that I didn't see why they would talk about me. When I'm with them, I'm usually the quiet one. lol I don't say much.
But apparently according to this individual...what I say is remembered.

However, I think its more then that.
I think that the group is drawn to my...more positive attitude. The light, the brightness. The cheerfulness I have even if I'm struggling myself. I think its my 'sunny aura' that draws the group to me.
lol I'm not imagining this brightness. One of my Favorite Institute teachers Brother Peterson, commented that I'm like a flame and that the 'moths' are drawn to me. Not that the group are moths. But its a similar analogy.

The group is drawn to me because of the light I have.
But also because I listen. I respond. I comment. I engage in a two way conversation and make others feel welcome.
And because I listen...I end up giving advice as well.
Because I listen, people come to me with their problems.
Its not like I'm a sage with advice...I've just....listened, remembered, learned from books from others examples, from being taught the gospel and remembering principles. from trusting in my Heavenly Father that I will be able to give advice that will help others. That I will know what to say.

I've had to call up help for inspiration on what to say more then once recently because others are asking for my advice on difficult questions.
So right now, I've been trying to follow more of what I've learned in relation to the gospel.

And I think I'm able to call up and give advice in relation to the gospel.
Because I'm taking four institute classes this semester.
I'm not saying that one needs to take four institute classes in order to receive guidance.
But I'm saying that I really really really need the Holy Ghost to be with me, to help me give advice to those who seek it, that can be used by them in relation to the gospel.
By taking these four institute classes, as well as institute classes in the past....
They are helping to sustain me. To keep me strong. To give me help in time of need. To help me remember to look to the Lord first.

I'm glad that I'm able to take all four institute classes. They help sustain me. They give me...back up bursts of energy to keep me from being drained by those who come seeking my flame. The gospel helps me to sustain my positivity. So that when the time comes...I don't get dragged down. I'm able to stay afloat.

I just hope that others will be able to find a way to float on their own testimonies and strength from the gospel soon. For my energy reserves will not last forever even with this added boost.

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Getting Caught

Today my sister had a mischievous idea.
You see on our apt floor three of the six apts have decorated their doors.
Ours included.
Kikay got really into Halloween this year, and decided to put up alot of decorations with....tape.
We didn't want holes in the wall...
but a problem with tape is....it doesn't like to stay put. >.<
So the decorations we've hung up on our door and over our door...keep falling down.
So Kikay has to keep putting them up.
With more tape...because she's stubborn like that, and we don't want to pay for holes in the wall..
So tape it is :D Duct tape.
Anyway...Kikay has been...'caught' a few times putting up the decorations by a neighbor of ours.
One who hasn't decorated his door.
This has been the third of fourth time he's seen her putting up decorations.
And...somehow in their conversation...Kikay got the brilliant idea....
To decorate his door. :D
So, we got black, orange and white paper.
Cut out a bunch of bats, pumpkins, and ghosts.
And went and stuck him on his door.
Only....
just as we were finishing...he appeared out of the stairwell.
Dun dun dun.
Busted.
We smiled guiltily. Basically yelled out "Run!" and dashed back for cover in our apartment giggling like crazy.
So it wasn't as much of a surprise...
but in the end...we got a Thank you Note :)
He stuck it on our door.
And it basically said "You Girls Rock! Thanks for making my day! :) "
^^ Hehe, it made getting busted...that much better :3

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

The Dream

Sylar was laying on my couch, with a baby in his arms. I asked him what he was doing. He said he was waiting for Claire, but apparently she didn't care anymore...about what happened to the baby. And I said: Well that's not surprising...you've kidnapped the baby a lot recently. And we got into a discussion about season six and how it ended....

Then the unholy tones of daylight pulled me away....
And I became myself again. :)

-S.N.D

Spider Throat

I had a couple of 'sick like days' in the past week...where I just wasn't feeling well, wasn't feeling myself. One of those days or I should say nights....involved tossing and turning and then waking up with a sore throat...and a headache.
Headaches when they hit me during the night tend to make my mind do weird things...and I make weird connections.
Well...that night...was one of those nights.
I woke up...to my dog barking/whining at me to be let out.
I got up and felt that my throat was sore.
And my first thought was:
"Huh, I must have eaten a spider and it fought going down."

Yep that's what I thought.
Why? Well...I have known for a loooong time that there was a study done somewhere a few years ago...where you eat like 10 spiders at some point. I can't remember if it was a night...or in a year...a month? It was some number.
And I guess I was thinking it recently when I was sleeping that night. lol.
Wondering if the spiders try and fight back as they get swallowed.
Hence...why I thought when I woke up with a sore throat. "Huh I must have eaten a spider."

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

The Dream

He was trying to get some place. To an important event. But he kept getting delayed. He was on the road driving in a van...white van....one of those 16 seater vans, but without the windows, it only had the driver and passenger seat. And he was confronted with two men....on his drive...in a bar...somehow...they were going to kill him. And there was nothing he could do to prevent himself from dying. So he requested that a few things be done...involving a pot and flowers...he wanted to die sitting up holding a pot of flowers. Why? Well he was heading to go meet up with his girlfriend but she was more then that...so a fiancee?
We were at school. Preparing to hold a...memorial service. For..my fiancee. It was a secret though. Nobody knew that we were going out. It was a secret that had to be kept. So I couldn't fully mourn. I snuck away early, driving in my car. hoping to get to the funeral service before everyone else. I could feel the others on my tail following me. So I was driving and driving...getting flashbacks and finding out information about how he had died...finally I parked in a downtown area like a city hall area with lots of grass around. More flashes about his final moments going through my mind....

When the unholy tones of daylight pulled me away....
and I became myself again.

-S.N.D

Late But On Time

You know how after something really good happens...it seems like something bad happens soon after?
It could be part of the pride cycle.
Where you feel really really good and happy and well...prideful about something that happens.
So....basically you end up setting yourself up for a fall?

Yah...that basically happened...but didn't to me today.

I had to be at school today at 8am.
But my bed was sooo nice and warm...soo comfortable.
So I ended up rolling over to see my clock saying 7:55am.

Bad thing. Right there. Being late.

But. Good thing.
I got there 20mins late...
but I arrived at the same time as the other person I was meeting.

So technically I was on time. :) Even though I was late ^^

Woot for blessings! :)

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Work Yourself Sick

If I could only need to sleep like two hours and be able to survive fully functional...
I would be a very happy person.
For I really enjoy being awake in the day, getting up early and feeling productive.
But I also love the quiet of nighttime, and staying up past midnight doing this and that.


Unfortunately.
That is not the case.
My body craves sleep.
And I've been depriving it of that need.


It started Sunday night.
Like usual...I got distracted doing this and that on the computer,
and before I knew it...it was 2am.
And I had a 6am wakeup call.
So I went to bed...and ended up tossing and turning and being wakeful.
So if I was lucky...I got four hours of sleep.
But it was less then lucky so less then four hours.


So I was up at 6am Monday.
And Monday I had a full schedule.
Functioning on 3ish hours of sleep.
And as my procrastinative luck would have it.
I had three assignments due in the morning.
Today.
A critique of a movie, a summarization of a paper, and an article review.
Easypeasy right?
Wrong.
The movie and summary homework, went rather well.
Slow because I don't like writing homework most of the time
Because I don't know what to say.
And then came the article review.
It was already midnight at this point.
But I figured it wouldn't be that hard to find two articles and summarize/compare them in one paper.
Wrong.
So wrong.
I had to find articles from accredited online journals.
And....some bright person.
Decided to have 99 out of 100 journals...'sign up to get me' or 'pay me this much money to see me' formulas.
So what I thought would be a quick thirty minute project...ended up becoming a two-three hour project.
The teacher lied. Saying it shouldn't take longer then a couple of hours.
No.
It took longer.
Because the articles weren't free! So I couldn't access them!
It really didn't help that by like 10:30 I was already brain dead from lack of sleep the night before.
But I told myself in that stubborn way. "I'll finish this paper, I'll finish this. I don't have the time to do all my assignments in the morning so I need to get them done before I go to bed tonight...."

Well....it worked...I went through phases of sleepiness and awakeness.
Til.....about 2:17amish.
(I actually don't remember the time.)
I had been working diligently on typing out my paper, having found the two journal articles I needed.
When I hit a wall.
Like a major red lights flashing, alarms blaring wall.
Where I told myself "SARNIC GET TO BED NOW!"
It wasn't that "You go to bed now or I will make you fall asleep where you stand" voice.
No, it was the "I am shutting down whether you like it or not. It doesn't matter if you still have homework done, your systems are empty, there is no more battery left in the plant, You NEED TO GO RECHARGE! GO NOW!"
So...I went....for the wall was like a wave of sickness.
I had felt it coming on.
But this was overwhelming.
Where I literally felt sick.
Like stomach was upset, head aching itself to pieces sick.
I had pushed my body too far.
And it demanded rest.
So I went and tried to rest.

It didn't work out that way.
I got very little rest because my overworked systems were rebelling against me.
Particularly my stomach rebelled. But once it was done throwing a fit, I was able to down some medicine and grab my heat pack.
And go huddle on the couch in the living room.

The sickness and feeling of "I really don't feel well."
Was bad enough that I started mentally asking myself what classes could I miss in the morning.
What classes did I have to be there for? It was about 6am at this point.
But an hour and a half later...when I got up to finish my Article Review....
I was feeling almost normal.
Awake even.

Its a blessing that I repeatedly am grateful for.
For I do get major headaches, that once in a while upset my stomach...and the pain gets to the point where I consider missing classes.
Yet, I have been blessed, that no matter how many hours I loose in sleep, how sick I feel, by the time the time for me to get ready rolls around. I am able to get up and go to school and feel normal again.
Its a blessing I would dearly miss were it to disappear from my life.

Anyway. I was able to get to school, and actually be awake.
I was functioning off of another four hours of sleep...
and I was awake.
It was odd, but I'm grateful for it, for I needed to be awake and studious this day. :)

Its just weird. I'd never had that feeling before.
Where I literally made myself sick by staying up late trying to think and do homework...
When my brain was not awake and not in the mood to do homework.
Perhaps next time an assignment is due. I'll go to bed and wake up early. Instead of go to bed late and wake up later.
Then I will avoid....
Working myself sick.

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

The Dream
A part of my dream that I remember was...I think I was reading an article about why President Monson was late to Saturday General Conference...he'd been involved in a a hit and run accident...a fenderbender of some sort...

-S.N.D

Purple Boxes and Alleluias

A while ago,
I had the inspiration....probably from boredom....in a church related thing.
To go through the hymns.
And mark in my scriptures which hymns we sing, were inspired from which scriptures.

My method is to have a purple pencil...a hymnbook, and then my scripture. I look at the hymn number, read through it then glance at the scriptures listened at the bottom of the song. Usually there are two from different books. I then will flip my scriptures open to that chapter and verse and color in the first letter of the word purple. So a purple box would be around the first letter.
If another hymn popped up that had the same verse listed, I would then color in the second letter in the first word and so on and so forth.
I used purple because I wanted the hymn scriptures to stand out...and I already used red alot :) lol

I actually fell out of the habit of marking the hymns.
mostly because its time consuming.
I think I stopped around the 170s or so for like a year.
But the past couple of weeks....I got back into it.
Mostly because I wanted to finish what I started...and it was fast Sunday....and looking up scriptures was a good way to keep my fingers and part of my mind entertained lol :)
I did it again this past Sunday.
And I hit...
The Christmas hymns.
The 200s.
Most of the time I'm like
NOOOO!!!
I really have a thing against listening to Christmas music before thanksgiving is over.

But...it was odd this time around.
Because as I silently read over the different hymns.
I got really excited.
I was excited to read the different Alleluia chorus's and celebrations of Christ's birth.
It perked me up.
And I felt really happy during and after I was done reading those hymns and marking them in my scriptures ^^
*Luke 2: 4-20 are really purple now lol.

It was just nice to have the tunes go through my head.
For in retrospect, we really don't hear the Christmas songs that often.
And they're all happy and uplifting and spiritual.
So it was a nice early treat to me to have those songs running through my head for an hour.
For I actually do like singing them....
After Thanksgiving :)

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Into the Headlights

There we were.
(Kikay and I)
Minding our own business, driving a bit too fast on the freeway.
It was dark, but the lights of our car headlights were bright enough for us to see.
But then...it started raining.
Slight at first.
But getting heavier and heavier.
Our windshield wipers were going faster and faster.
We made it somehow up to the point of the mountain.
Driving and driving
Going faster then slower depending on the cars in front of us.
Avoiding four cop cars along the way.
We were just passing by the downcline of the point of the mountain.
Around Thanksgiving Point or just past it.
When...out of the darkness.
Out of the side of the carpool lane. (the space between the barriers and the carpool lane)
Came rolling....
THIS HUGE TUMBLE WEED!
It was as tall as the hood of the car.
And it rolled slowly into view.
Like a zombie coming from the grave.
We were driving so fast.
There was no time to react!
In the blink of an eye.
SMASH!
Then it was gone.
And we continued onward.

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

I was dreaming something....but I became aware of this whining noise.
And I realized. It was my dog wanting outside.
So I let her out.
Went back to bed.
And dreamt til 12:30pm.

Answerless

I don't know the full story.
Appearances are not what they seem.
For underneath lie secrets.
Some are bright and glaring when exposed.
Bringing a sense of wonder. A question of why this hadn't been shown before.
Others are dark and dismal
And I'm left wondering...how did I not see?
How could I help?

I am left answerless.
For there is no one size fits all answer.
And it seems like there isn't enough time.
To cut and stitch and make a fit.
That allows the brightness to shine through.
So that the darkness fades away.

So for now...a one size fits all....will have to be adjusted on the fly.
So that it fits the one, and not the all.

For now, I'll just have to be there.
Supporting.

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

The Dream
I was on a cruise ship of some sort. It was like a mystery boat, where a crime needed to be solved, but it also had the concept of the Titanic, where the boat was sinking and we had to get out of the boat real quick. And then there was a raptor dinosaur thing chasing us all over, and I was hiding with a guy, trying to avoiding getting off the boat. which wasn't a boat, but now like a house, or maybe a plane and

that is why the fox never came home. :)
-S.N.D

Family History

Do you ever think about Family History?

Finding names of ancestors and all that?

Well....does the Family History....have to happen in the past?

I had the thought come to me today during devotional.
For the speaker mentioned having a responsibility to family history.

And I wondered.
Could that apply to our family. Right now?
Instead of searching for names in our past...could we not interact with our family now. In the present?
For what is the present, but the prelude to the past?

Are we spending as much time with our family as we could?
Are we making the moments, memories recordable so that future generations can look at them?
Could a responsibility to Family History...be recording a journal, a record of your life and the experiences you go through?
Are we making the effort to try and connect with cousins, aunts, uncles, nieces, nephews, grandparents, great grandparents, siblings, parents by having family get togethers?
Could a responsibility to Family History mean having a reunion to gather family the together, to tell stories, share memories, and work out problems?

I guess Family History...is whatever you think it should be....as long as an effort is made to connect with family in some way some how.

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

The Dream....

I remember I was drinking a beverage from a metal straw...that kept the drink cold.

-S.N.D

Give me a Sign

Give unto me a sign. For then I will believe. Then I will do and follow after thee.

I have given unto thee signs a plenty. Yet, thou didst not look for them and see.

One of my favorite things about my classes...is when the teachers...give little 'freebees' on tests.
I also like it because, its never obvious. You don't get big letters of CIRCLE C FOR QUESTION 56
No its in small print, hidden.
Hidden where?
In the Instructions.
Among all the usual gabble of "Do not cheat, take your time, have fun." Blah blah blah.
Sometimes you find a nugget of gold in "Put J on 21." (on a 20 question quiz)
And I always get a thrill of excitement when I see that :)
For I know not everyone will see this 'sign'
Though I do have a moment of hesitancy in putting the answer down....in case it was a trick....but I do. I follow the sign and I put the answer where directed.
My Anatomy teacher likes to do this. :) He doesn't do it every quiz, but throughout the semester it will happen three or four times.

And because of my Anatomy teacher. I came up with an idea for the Institute.
A couple of days ago, I was reprogramming the electronic board we have there to say what was going on this week.
One of the teachers walked by as I was talking to another student, and he over heard me say. "It would be fun to see how many people actually read this sign. Perhaps we should say "If you read this sign go get candy from the office. and then see how many people get it."
The teacher basically the 'go to guy' when you want to do something. Totally liked the idea. "Lets do it." He said.
So I did a bunch of planning and today. I put a message up on the Electronic Board.
After all the other announcements there was this: "Are you reading this sign? Get Candy from Kim in Main Office."
And I waited. Excited. To see who would see....
It was rather...disappointing. Tons of people walked by, but if any of them looked up to the Electronic Board....they didn't see it. For a different message was showing at that moment.
The only way people looked up.....was if I or my co-chair hinted at it. Saying "Hey what's that?" and things like that.
:( In the end...only 8 people saw it.

As I sat there watching all these people walk by. I felt like shouting to them. "Hey! Hey! Look up! Look up at the sign!! Go Get your Candy!!"

And as I saw these people walk by....I had the image of the "Snake on a cross" come into my mind. The story of how people are bitten by snakes, and moses...I think it was moses...crafts an iron snake, and to be cured....they just have to look up.
Yet very few people did.

I think the main problem was....that the electronic board already had so many other messages on it...that people in a hurry, wouldn't see the candy message.
But in a sense....this is a reflection of the world today.
We have so many worldly things going on in our lives; school, work, music, Internet, homework, parties, friends...etc etc.
That sometimes....we can't hear/see the spirit.
Its there. The candy is waiting there for you to get and eat.
You only have to read it. Pay attention.
Look for that sign.
For if you're not on the lookout for the sign you crave...you'll miss it.
In the world though we do have...guides. Guiding signs to the actual sign.
These signs would be the prophet and apostles.
In the candy/electronic sign thing...I, and my co chair, and any other individual who told others to look at the sign. Could be considered the 'prophet' Now some, didn't look right away when we told them to look. Therefore they missed the sign, and had to wait longer. Others didn't look. Others did.

So the thought that has been running through my head today was:

Are you seeing the signs?
How many times have I asked for a sign....and then not looked for it?
Is it expected to suddenly pop up in front of me with confetti and music and a "Here I am! The sign you wanted!" on it?
No.
Most of the time, the signs....will be hidden in everyday things. A simple comment here, a happenstance there. A smile in some other place. And suddenly you have your sign.
For that is the way the Lord works. Through small and simple things will it then become great.

So where is your sign?
Hidden, among all the other signs of the world.
you just have to take the time, to sift through those worldly signs. To find that one spiritual message you need.

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

Dismal Potions

On Pottermore (A Harry Potter related website created by J.K. Rowling)
You can brew potions for house points.
(If you want to get into Pottermore...it should be open to the public by the end of October...we'll see though it could change.)

Well...I have to admit, I now see why potions isn't a favorite class in Hogwarts by students -and not because Snape being the teacher.

Its due to...glitches...in the program.
But if it was in real life, it would be due to not paying attention, and definitely running out of time.

It was frustrating last night and earlier today for me, because the 'hardest potion' that would give you the most points if you create it right....wouldn't let me create it right!
Three times in a row.
I went to brew the potion. I would get the first part right.
But the second part where you have to wait for 100mins for it to 'steep' or whatever...
Well...after 100 minutes...something would go wrong. Once I put in the wrong number of ingredients. The other two times, I would just barely miss getting my potion done on time. This was due to having to stir my potion seven times in ten seconds and my seven stirs only counting for like 3 stirs...

Ugh it was soo frustrating.
300 minutes ---and no points because of time.
-I was multitasking so I got other things done, but still...
the excitement had built up. I was ready to get those points and....
No ice cream sundae. :(

And I've had the thought more then once come to my mind "No wonder Neville Longbottom didn't like potions. This is HARD." lol.

But I have to take a step back and breathe...and calmly say...in the long run it doesn't matter.
For it is just a game. :) lol.
Yet it has real life implications as well.
How often have you looked forward to something...or went to achieve a goal....
Only to fall short.
To not make it to the top of Mount Everest because of a storm coming up and blocking your way?
In some cases you might foolishly head on and risk dying.
Or in the case of potion making...risk having your cauldron explode and loosing house points...

It can be a learning experience.
One I don't enjoy having to relearn.
Sometime soon...I will master the Sleeping Draught.
And then,
Oh yes then.
I will celebrate my goal finally being completed.
After day and days of struggle. :) lol
For that is life isn't it?
To try and try again until we get it right.

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

The Dream
It was one of those dreams where I was trying to get ready for something...do the morning routine and all that...but not succeeding, constantly being interrupted and such in awkward moments.

-S.N.D

The Secret Project Part 5a

We've come to the last superhero. :(
For there were only five that Sarnic contacted.
And this is the last one.
Its kind of sad that I've already reached this one.
I didn't think five days would go by so quickly lol :)
:( but that means that there will be no more secret project to share on my blog....
Until I draw some more comics :) lol
Who knows when that will be...
Anyway, appropriately enough
the last superhero Sarnic approaches is:

Batman.

I debated for a while whether or not I should shade in Batman and put him in black. For I had kept the rest of the super's outfits just white, no shading at all.
But this was Batman!
Would he look like batman if he was all in white? No.
He's look like....some odd version of batman...in white.
That's actually an interesting concept though....
I'll have to explore the idea of Batman putting on white at some point...
That would be entertaining lol. :)  

I must say, that besides having to shade Batman black...He was the easiest superhero to draw.
Because I didn't have to form arms or legs for him, I could just shroud him in a cloak of blackness and he'd still look epic :) lol 

I did want to have a comic, where Sarnic doesn't get caught when she Friend Tests a super.
I figured...it was appropriate enough that, Batman would not catch her. :)
The only difficult part was to show that he wasn't catching her. 
Hence, my attempt at more 'movement lines' and shading and such.  

I admit, the comic above...is my favorite comic out of them all. ^^;; It makes me smile every time I see it. :) lol

The comic below....was inspired a bit by the "How it should have ended" shows involving Superman and Batman, or other shows making fun of Batman, for he always says the line below, as if that is the only reason he ever needs to prove himself. And usually it is. Because he is awesome, not having any superpowers like the others. :) 

Thanks for putting up with the Secret Comic for the past week. :)
I hope its brought a smile to your face, and that you'll look forward
To when the next set of Secret Project Comics come out. :)

Oh. ;)
Did you notice...that the title of the comic "The Secret Project."
Tells you which superheroes are involved?

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi