Sincrastination

In one of my institute classes, the teacher gave time for the bearing of testimonies.
He wanted us to basically tell what we've learned or what we've taken from his class.

While listening to others bear testimonies I usually start going through ideas of what I could say if I decided to stand up.

This time around as my tired brain was working extra hard to try and focus (lack of sleep not good.)
I randomly had the idea that:
Procrastinated Repentance is alot like Procrastinated Homework.

Everyone knows that if you're taking classes for school...you're most likely going to get homework.
Some assignments are due the next time that the class meets, others are due by midterm, or at the end of the term.

Some assignments are worth very little 5 or 10 points while other big research projects are worth much more 100 points or 15% of your grade or something.

The small assignments...either easy or harder get done pretty quickly since they're due sooner.
But the other assignments...due further in the future...might not get done as quickly because you think that you have 'plenty of time' to work on it.

Well time passes by and the due date for your big project gets closer and closer.....
Smart people might begin working on their project then.
But you find a way to put it off "Oh, I need to do this one first its due sooner."
Until you're staring down the barrel a day or two before this project is due and think
"Why didn't I do this sooner?"
The stress and pressure suddenly mount to a high extreme
and you think as you're staying up most of the night...
"Why didn't I start this sooner?"

My sleep deprived brain somehow wants to connect this with sin.
Its granted that we sin.
Small sins, Medium sins, Large sins.....it depends on the choices we make that tells us how much we've sinned.

The process of Repentance can perhaps be compared to the process of doing homework.

Receiving homework is doing the sin.
Doing the homework soon after being assigned it could be compared to the repentance process.
Small sins...small homework probably aren't much to blink at. You might keep doing that sin over again because you keep getting similar homework assigned until the semester ends and you don't have those assignments ever again.
Unless you failed the class....or else get similar assignments in other classes....but often times once that series of assignments is completed for the year you don't get them again. You don't do the sin again, you've moved past the temptation to do those sins.
But with the bigger assignments....
If you start working on them early you can repent from those sins and move on with your life even if it takes alot more effort to go through the process.
But if you procrastinate this sin the ramifications or stress levels are much higher then if you had done little repentances along the way instead of trying to repent for this huge monster of 'sin'
Eventually you will finish the project and move past it.
But the 'grief' you experienced trying to do it all within a short period of time....it seriously isn't worth it.

The solution. Don't commit big sins. Its not worth the heart-ache.

Not that you can really escape sin in its entirety....
but going through the repentance process in 'small doses' is much more preferable then trying to stay up all night begging for forgiveness on your knees for procrastinating so long.

In either case....procrastination might mean that you'll never end up repenting or doing the homework due to unforeseen circumstances. Even if procrastination works for you now...it might work for you in the future because its always changing.

I don't know if that makes any sense....
It kind of makes sense in my head...but written down.. I don't know
lol I just know that I've told myself "Never again. I will never procrastinate again."
Ha....we'll see how well that works out next semester lol :)

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi