In Two Years

I get random things stuck in my head.
There's the movie quotes, song lyrics, story ideas, made up arguments etc.

But on occasion, I just have a thought that just....is a thought.
A wonderment.

I'm guessing this particular thought came from an episode of Detective Conan
(yes I'm still obsessing over the show lol)
It was an episode where there was a reunion between classmates.

I probably watched it over a week ago,
but for some reason, in the past couple of days.
The thought has been in my mind.

About my next high school reunion.
It's still a couple of years away.

So in all reality, there really shouldn't be any reason to be thinking about it.

I've already gone through one.
Which was a rather small gathering. Only a handful of people I knew.
And it was rather awkward because I was basically the only one who showed up who wasn't already married.

Which is crazy to think about, since only 5 years had passed since we graduated.

It's one of those moments where you can't help but feel like...you're behind.
Missing out on things, delayed in special events...
*exhales*

So I suppose it's the awkward feeling.
Of wondering.....how things will be in two years.

Where will I be?
Where will my classmates be?
Some are already married, many of them have kids.
Would some have gotten divorced?
Will others be in the middle of a high rise career path?
Who had their dreams made?
Who is still working on them?

*shakes head*

Again, the question running through my mind.
Is....
Where will I be in two years?

And will I be in a place in two years where I'll be happy to tell people about what I've been up to since graduation?

Or will it be one of those situations, that just leaves an uncomfortable feeling in my stomach.
Where I feel that I've failed in others expectations. That my path took a different one from what they were expecting and they're...disappointed.

Honestly, it should be thoughts I should be thinking in two years.
When the next reunion happens.

But.
I suppose.
If the thoughts were taking place in two years.
Then it would be two years too late to change anything.

Since I'm thinking about it now.
It means I have time to actually consider.
How do I want to present myself to my classmates in two years?
What do I need to change in order to feel more comfortable in telling people what I've been up to?

In all Honesty.
I really just want to tell people that I've published a book and became famous. lol.

But with no written book, comes no publishing, comes no becoming famous.

So....
Is this the motivation I need to actually sit down, get to work, write one of the million story ideas I have, get it published, and get on the route to becoming an author?

;) Maybe.

Until you next see these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi