Empty Rooms

I had a roommate move out today. (Now its just me and my sister)
And its odd.
How empty the apartment feels now.
Even though my sister and I had been the ones to basically decorate the 'main' areas of the apartment.
The apartment has this empty feeling echoing from the right side of the apartment.
Where this roommate used to be.
There seems to be more of an echo here now.
A call of loneliness from that side because nobody lives there anymore.
Even though the doors are shut, and the lights are off.
Its still tangible that nobody lives on that side of apartment anymore. :S
Its odd. Very odd.
There hadn't really been anything on that side of the apartment to show specifically who lived there.
Yet the 'warmth' on that side of the apartment is gone.
Its a very weird feeling.
One that I haven't really experienced before.
Because....before I have been the one to always move out and leave others behind.
Its never been the other way. Where I stayed and others moved out.
This will take some getting used to...
Even though I should be used to it.
Its amazing how stuff can make a room fill lived in even when the person is never there.
I guess there is kind of an empty feeling, but not a hollow feeling.
Since I have lived with roommates who were never there.
But an empty room. Two empty rooms.
Are still empty..when there are things inside of it, but hollow when nothing is inside it.

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

The Dream


I was at my grandma's house.
Out on the sidewalk by the road.
And my brother was standing on the porch, next to the swing.
Suddenly he turned around his back to me.
And...it kinda reminded me of Astroboy how he had guns in his bottom.
Well my brother had a similar concept. Two basically automatic guns that were
strapped to his waist. And he was shooting at me.
I remembered that in the future my brother would do the same thing to me.
So I did what I did in the future to save myself now.
(It was one of those flashback moments of I remembered doing this, though I hadn't actually done it, which made it seem like I was seeing the future)
I dropped to the ground
(The '1st' time I think I was in a stairwell so I dropped down letting the step above me shield me by its height)
And got the grass to mostly shield me....it was rather tall grass....though still looked like lawn grass....somehow it protected me.
Anyway I wanted my brother to think that he was hitting me. So I would twitch like I was getting hit.
Though none of the bullets touched me.
I probably got cut up though from shrapnel...something to make it look like I was dead.
Anyway the bullets finally stopped.
And my brother came over to check me out. I think he did something to my leg...implanted something or attached something.
I apparently passed the test because he then left....I think he left in a white van type truck.
But I still laid there after he was gone because I was terrified he'd come back.
Well at some point some cops came up. To check out the cars in the driveway and found me.
I ended up getting up and moving to the porch.
Where I was comforted by my mother on the porch swing.
But I was still terrified.
Because there was apparently a red car rally race going on, and part of the route passed by my grandparents house. Where red cars of all shapes, types, and sizes kept passing by.
Well...I knew my brother drove a red car....so every time I saw the color red coming towards the house my automatic reaction was of terror because I thought my brother was coming back.
Well....to try and cheer me up.....
My parents decided that we should take a family vacation.
And we ended up on weed covered hill over looking K-mart with a chain link fence all the way around.
I think it was a check point or something.
Anyway. My brother was there with us.
And he and I had a bit of a....conversation where He was trying to get me to do things he wanted me to do....because of the thing he put in my ankle....and me....not doing them...or doing them less then willingly. I would talk back at him at every turn. Somehow it switched to the living room and hallway of my parents house. And I was doing something to some wiring where it was sparking and 'fizzing'
Anyway the parents came in and said that during the vacation at this stop...
(we were in a cave-like place now they'd opened the door letting bright sunlight in)
That they were going to pay a dollar or two to take the interpreter certification test for fun.
And they wanted to know if I wanted to come.
I knew I wasn't ready to take the interpreter certification test yet...so i said no.
Instead I ended up going to school.
 Where I was paranoid because I was basically 'half-robot' thanks to my brother's tampering with my body composition with his metal implant thing.
And they were looking for robots.
Anyway I got into my classroom which was a computer type science room. Narrow dark...
And my teacher walked in. She was tall young, red haired...I guess she had a similarity to the red haired vampire girl from the Twilight series....combined with some other actress I knew.
Anyway she came into the room ready to teach...
when a man in a dark suit came in and told the teacher she had to teach something else...something to deal with the solar system. Because the teacher went to this flat model hanging horizontally and tapped it with a wand. and a solar system emerged from below the flat plane making it 3D
But before she could start teaching the dude in the black suit had my brother come up and help explain.
Well something happened and the teacher and my brother (who now looked like Cody from Suite Life of Zack and Cody...I think it was Cody...the 'smart' twin of the two) went into this weird 'connection thing' where the teacher and he were talking. But they were focused more on each other. And the teacher's face started changing...looking more boxy and robotic...revealing her as a robot in disguise and basically alien. Because there was a weird blue glow to the thing and at one point the robo-teacher delved into my brother's head and pulled out half of his brain. ( they were talking in a weird language) but my brother had her put that part of his brain back into his head.
Anyway I knew it wasn't good that my teacher had been revealed because that meant...that I might be revealed as well.

But the dream ended up skipping a head....years ahead into the future.
The landscape was red/orange black in color.
And the dream zoomed in on an orange construction zone
And then onto a crazy bouncy flatscreen TV/ipad type of thing.
(it was an invention of my brothers from years ago)
It had been glitchy back then as well stuck repeating the same word over and over again.
Now it was in this orange/black construction zone bouncing crazily around yelling "Detour! Detour! Detour!"
Then the dream zoomed in on me.
And I was walking with my brother...I was dressed in black...pants and shirt.
And my brother was dressed rather weirdly....
I'm not sure it was even my brother anymore...but I thought of him as my brother..
He was tall had long dark black curly hair...that was very curly, ringlets (the face reminded me of a spoiled girl child) and he was dressed in big foofy white curly sheep skin type robes.
And we were walking along.
And there were two frontierville looking sheep on either side of him.
But my brother was complaining that no matter what he did these sheep he had created...weren't following him.
And it was true, once we entered into a store type font.
The sheep disappeared.
But we continued onward heading for the 'headquarters'
We entered a room with a 'judgement' type set up with council members there.
The council was made up of people who had put my brother into power.
(it started back with the teacher...that was the first domino to fall to set this path down)
And had made the world the dark and dismal place it was.

And then the unholy tones of daylight pulled me away....
And I became myself again.

Extra info.
I think my brother dressing up as a sheep was supposed to represent a "wolf in sheeps clothing"
The rest of the dream....yah.....there might be influences from different movies and recently seen TV shows...but otherwise I have no idea :)

And that
is why the fox never came home. :)

-S.N.D