The Stubborn First Plan

Why does this always seem to happen to me?

What happened?

Well...I was bored.
And tired of waiting for non responsive friends to respond.
So I took the initiative.
And contacted a friend of mine who lives nearby.
A possible plan was made.
That we could hang out after a certain time if things got done on their side.
Well.....about that hangout point.
I suddenly became popular.

Two other individuals texted me asking if I wanted to hang out.
One right after the other....like five minutes apart it seemed like.

I hate it when this happens.
Intensely dislike it.
Why do you NOW want to hang with me?
I already MADE OTHER plans.

They were tentative, but I was taking it on faith that...well the plan would happen.
And I didn't want the:
"Okay, I'll change my plans and do this instead."
And then have the first individual say:
"Okay I can hang out now!"
and then I'd have to say.
"Oh sorry...I'm busy doing something else...."

I've done that before.
But different.
I asked for help.
The individual said gimmie a moment.
and I was like...Okay!
Then I saw someone else...and asked them for help.
And they complied.
and I was like Great! I'm happy I got my help!
Only to have the other individual come up to me and say "Hey I can help now."
and then...I had to say...Oh I already got help.
I didn't like that feeling.
Where it was like...I wasn't patient enough.

I didn't want that to happen with plans.
Because if I try to juggle multiple plans...it ends up not working out and I feel rushed.
So basically...I was putting all my apples in one basket.
After all I can't be in three places at once.

So I stuck with my original plan...on the hopes that it would actually happen.
And told the other two. Sorry I already have plans.
Soon afterwards...the conversation with the first individual...seemed to hint at...
that I wouldn't be seeing them tonight.

But I'd already told the other two I had plans...
and I didn't want to suddenly say "Oh they fell through I can hang out now."

So in the end what happens?
I end up doing nothing.
As plans have fallen through all over. :(

Now I'm wondering....
If I make my own plans.....
and other things come up....
should I drop that first plan that I made?
And go with another option offered me?

I wonder if this is a sign....if I make plans and I'm suddenly offered others...that the first set of plans won't work out.
Hmmm
I dunno.
I do know though.
I'm very stubborn. I like to stick with the first plan.
After all it was the first plan.
But methinks...if the plan isn't set in stone. Like solid stone.
Next time...I will go with a different option offered to me.
Now...to figure out if a plan is set in stone or not lol.

Until you next read these words;
I'll be watching the leaves.
Enjoy the day!

-Sarnic Dirchi

The Dream

....had something to do...with me stacking things..animals? on top of each other in a tall tower.

-S.N.D